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2011-12-13T18:16:00.000-08:00

Coming back to Malaysia brought back some good memories as well as some memories that has long been forgotten. My friends told me that I should not look back and just keep moving forward, but i find it super hard to move on. Guess i have to try and try and try my best to do that. Moving on is part of the process of growing up, i have to go through this. Friends, please keep me in prayer. Pray for the courage to step out of the past and move on. Thanks.

張棟樑 - 給朋友的話【完整版】 MV

2011-11-29T05:43:00.000-08:00

Wow!!

2011-11-08T01:59:00.001-08:00

A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her 5-year old son waiting for her at the door.

SON:「Mummy, may I ask you a question?」
MUM:「Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.」

SON:「Mummy, how much do you make an hour?」
MUM:「That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?」 the woman said angrily.

SON:「I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?」
MUM:「If you must know, I make $20 an hour.」

SON:「Oh..」 the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON:「Mummy, may I please borrow $5?」

The mother was furious, 「If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.」

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door...

The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down, and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $5 and he really didn't ask for money very often.The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

「Are you asleep, son?」 She asked.
「No Mummy, I'm awake,」replied the boy.

「I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier」 said the woman. 「It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $5 you asked for.」

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 「Oh, thank you Mummy!」he yelled.
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

「Why do you want more money if you already have some?」 the mother grumbled.
「Because I didn't have enough, but now I do.」 the little boy replied.

「Mummy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time?
Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.」

The mother was crushed. She put her arms around her little son, and she begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $20 worth of your time with someone you love ♥

MikesChair - Someone Worth Dying For (Official Music Video)

2011-11-07T18:35:00.000-08:00

This song is so awesome. Whenever you feel like your not worth it, everything seems out of place,remember that you are a somebody in God's eyes. Will Jesus go through all this trouble and pain just to save you if you are a nobody to Him? No! He does this because He values you more than Himself. If you fall, just dust off and stand up again., You are not alone for He is with you.. :D

You are Beautiful!! :D

2011-10-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hey ladies, this is what God has put into my mind. Something that I am still struggling sometimes. I felt Him saying to me that I do not need a mirror to prove that you are beautiful. You are beautiful cause He had made you so. Women has been striving to look the best, to dress the best, because they want the mirror to tell them that they are pretty. Let me break it down for you, mirror can be the people around you, the people that you are trying to please. But, God says, we are perfect in His eyes and we don't really have to change our physical appearance to attract someone or do things that is not good for ourselves. He is the only one that we have to please, if He says we are beautiful in His eyes, then we are. :D

Ladies we have to understand our identity in Christ. There's no wrong in wanting to look pretty but the purpose behind that is what matters. If our heart is wrong, there will be no peace and joy that comes out from that. Therefore, we have to set our hearts right. True beauty comes from the spirit. We can have the best dress in the world and we do not look pretty because beauty irradiates from the inner being. To become beautiful is to have a righteous and loving spirit.

Love,

Bernice

Voice of Truth lyrics - CASTING CROWNS

2011-10-10T22:44:00.000-07:00

Came across this song today. I have been debating in myself for quite some time. This song really spoke to me. It's challenging me whether which voice I am listening to. The voice of the earth or the voice of truth which is the word of God. I hope this song will encourage you guys that the only voice that is worth listening to is the voice of God. He alone knows it all. Stop listening to what the enemy is whispering in your ear. They are voices that bring destruction. Therefore, we have to learn to identify His voice. :D

Cheers.

Let it go - Tenth Avenue North

2011-10-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.

Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still, to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring,
So tell me what do you want from me?

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go

What do I love?
What do I hate?
What will I lose?
What will I gain?
How do I save my soul?
What if I bend?
What if I break?
What will it cost?
What will it take?
For you to save my soul.

You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul

You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 4 of 4

2011-10-07T01:20:00.001-07:00

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 3 of 4

2011-10-07T01:20:00.000-07:00

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 2 of 4

2011-10-07T01:19:00.001-07:00

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 1 of 4

2011-10-07T01:19:00.000-07:00

DON'T WORRY! EVERYTHING IS SETTLED!!

2011-10-07T01:07:00.001-07:00

1. Worrying Accomplishes Absolutely Nothing.

Matthew 6:27-29
Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don't work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. (NLT)

2. Worrying is Not Good for You.

Worrying is destructive to us in many ways. It becomes a mental burden that can even cause us to grow physically sick.

Proverbs 12:25
Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up. (NLT)

3. Worrying is the Opposite of Trusting God.

.Matthew 6:30
And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?(NLT)

Philippians 4:6-7
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. (NLT)

4. Worrying Puts Your Focus in the Wrong Direction.

Matthew 6:25
That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life-whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and your body more than clothing?(NLT)

Matthew 6:31-33
So don't worry about these things, saying, 'What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?' These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. (NLT)

1 Peter 5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. (NLT)

Sorry that this is a bit messy. :(

Proverbs 3

2011-10-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

Don't Assume You Know It All

1-2 Good friend, don't forget all I've taught you; take to heart my commands.
They'll help you live a long, long time,
a long life lived full and well.

3-4 Don't lose your grip on Love and Loyalty.
Tie them around your neck; carve their initials on your heart.
Earn a reputation for living well
in God's eyes and the eyes of the people.

5-12 Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he's the one who will keep you on track.
Don't assume that you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
your wine vats will brim over.
But don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline;
don't sulk under his loving correction.
It's the child he loves that God corrects;
a father's delight is behind all this.

The Very Tree of Life

13-18 You're blessed when you meet Lady Wisdom,
when you make friends with Madame Insight.
She's worth far more than money in the bank;
her friendship is better than a big salary.
Her value exceeds all the trappings of wealth;
nothing you could wish for holds a candle to her.
With one hand she gives long life,
with the other she confers recognition.
Her manner is beautiful,
her life wonderfully complete.
She's the very Tree of Life to those who embrace her.
Hold her tight—and be blessed!

19-20 With Lady Wisdom, God formed Earth;
with Madame Insight, he raised Heaven.
They knew when to signal rivers and springs to the surface,
and dew to descend from the night skies.

Never Walk Away

21-26 Dear friend, guard Clear Thinking and Common Sense with your life;
don't for a minute lose sight of them.
They'll keep your soul alive and well,
they'll keep you fit and attractive.
You'll travel safely,
you'll neither tire nor trip.
You'll take afternoon naps without a worry,
you'll enjoy a good night's sleep.
No need to panic over alarms or surprises,
or predictions that doomsday's just around the corner,
Because God will be right there with you;
he'll keep you safe and sound.

27-29 Never walk away from someone who deserves help;
your hand is God's hand for that person.
Don't tell your neighbor "Maybe some other time"
or "Try me tomorrow"
when the money's right there in your pocket.
Don't figure ways of taking advantage of your neighbor
when he's sitting there trusting and unsuspecting.

30-32 Don't walk around with a chip on your shoulder,
always spoiling for a fight.
Don't try to be like those who shoulder their way through life.
Why be a bully?
"Why not?" you say. Because God can't stand twisted souls.
It's the straightforward who get his respect.

33-35 God's curse blights the house of the wicked,
but he blesses the home of the righteous.
He gives proud skeptics a cold shoulder,
but if you're down on your luck, he's right there to help.
Wise living gets rewarded with honor;
stupid living gets the booby prize.

Jesus Vs Satan

2011-09-28T20:35:00.000-07:00

Jesus Vs Satan‏

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation.
Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden,
and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)

'Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive,
(well nearly everybody down there).
I set traps, I used the baits of temptation,
I know well what each one of them can't resist.
I nearly caught them all!' (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)

'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.
and He was praying to God the Father.

Satan answered 'Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!'

I'll make them divorce after they have married
so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established
'the family' (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16)

I will make them hate each other and abuse each other,
make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14)

I will teach them to make weapons and bombs,
so they kill each other

'I am really going to have fun!'

'And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?'
Jesus asked. And continued praying

'Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever'
'Lord by all respect, it's their decision' (I Jn 3: 8-10)

'How much do you want for all of them?' Jesus asked.

'Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good.
Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you?
Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and even denying you.'

'What's more, they love me a lot' (Mt 24: 10-13)

'You don't want these people!!'

'How much?' Jesus asked again

Satan looked at him with a nasty face

'All your tears and all your blood,
all the pain of the entire world, all together' (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)

Jesus said...'DONE' (He died on the cross and he bore all our sins)

'and He paid the price' (II Cor 5: 21)

How terrible it is that people don't seek for God,
and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell!

How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies
and we never seek the Bible

How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven,
thinking they can get there without having to believe,
without loving God above all things,
or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God.

It is terrible how some people can say 'I believe in God'
but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God)
(II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)

Don't you think it's pathetic how they send
each other thousands of jokes by email,
so they spread like plagues.

But when it's about the Lord's messages,
we think about it twice before we share them;
and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message

Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene,
vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet
that even many people would desire to get into the screen.

But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus
in the schools, places of work
self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20)

Even after knowing what He did for us.
Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin.
that we may be forgiven
and know Him in His glory with the Father.

Doesn't it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight
on Sabbath in the Church,
worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy,
for one more day to live etc.

But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3: 1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)

Does this seem just to you?

Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail
to all your contacts on the Web,
It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this
Don't let him get through with his plans!

Stop worrying what the others may think about you
It is time to worry about what 'God thinks about you'

Please brother and sister, pass it on?
'I already did it'

May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

2011-09-28T18:59:00.000-07:00

BY YOUR SIDE

2011-09-28T18:38:00.000-07:00

This is a song by Tenth Avenue North. I believe this is what our Father in Heaven is telling us. It has touched my heart and i believe that it will touch yours too.

By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

A Whole New Episode

2011-03-03T20:01:00.000-08:00

It has been about half a year since i updated my blog. I can't believe I am a university student already!! How fast time flies. University lifestyle is way different from foundation studies and high school. If you are not independent in your studies, you will be left behind especially in the course that I am doing now. The lecturers are not going to spoon feed you. The lectures notes they give us is like 60% of the whole topic. The rest we have to go online tutorials of read some other resources.

It's a big challenge for me. I am the kind of person who do things at the eleventh hour, and I don't think i can survive this 3 years with that kind of attitude. I have to be more proactive in my studies (eg. pre-read lecture notes, listen to the audio recordings over and over again, pay attention during lectures). My oh my!!! This is super hard for me and it means i have to cut down my movie hours, sleeping hours and day dreaming hours. :D

Oh well, I guess i have to really focus this year. I don't wanna waste my parent's money and my time. Jia You!!!! and to all my friends out there who share the same experience, let's support each other so that we can have a peaceful university life!!!!!! :D

A memorable birthday!!!

2010-07-20T17:50:00.000-07:00

This year is my first year celebrating my birthday overseas without my parents.. At first, i felst very homesick.. but then.. Thanks to Shireen i manage to have a memorable Birthday that i cherish fof a lifetime..

Firstly is last Friday. I planned a birthday party for another friend of mine. I planned to tie the person to a chair and then throw water balloons at him.. but in the end, my 'loyal' teammates tie me up as well.. Indeed, they have betrayed me. They splash water on us too at 12midnight during WINTER.. Luckily, my friend and I did not get sick.. haha..

Then on Sunday irself, Shireen organised a birthday party for me where my friends pur up a show for me.. There were dance performances, sketch, raps, song performance.. I was very touched by the effort they put in and i appreciate what they had done for me. They sure did lessen my homesickness.. I got to eat crab which i have been craving for a long time.. :D thanks to Koola.. :D

Then on Tuesday, my urbanlife group UL34 celebrated my birthday as well, Hui Li baked me a cake. It was super nice..

I really thank God that He has blessed me with good friendships and has lead me through my days in Australia.. :D Amen.

The same old problem visits me again... :(

2010-06-16T18:27:00.000-07:00

Exam week is here. THis week i got my my marks for drama. I am starting to compare again. I feel so small in the community i am living in right now. When i compare, that's when I feel super emotional and unstable. I might burst int tears in anytime.

I do not want to compare any more.. I want to be myself. I want Bernice to be Bernice and not someone else.

I've been experiencing stress form people around me that compare me with other people. I am who I am, fearfully and wonderfully made.

BERNICE ONG!!!!! STOP COMPARING!!! JUST DO YOUR BEST

There will be light even when I am in my darkest moments.

2010-04-13T17:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i got back my Maths 1 test paper.. I got 73%. I feel so bad after seeing my friends getting 80++ or 90.. I cried. When I checked through my papers,i found that I was mostly my careless mistaked that bring down my marks.. This time round the marks is not counted in our final exam so that comforts me a bit. My kiasu-ness makes me feel useless seeing everybody scoring good marks.. My parents expect me to score higher marks and I feel so bad letting them down. Although they are okay about my marks, but i know i can do better.

The most touching part was, my friends here in Australia comforted me and lend a shoulder to me when i was feeling as if my world is ending. After a while, my tutor asked me to talk to him. I went into his office. He asked me questions about my Maths background back in Malaysia. I told him that my major problem is that i have a lot of careless mistakes. He taught me how to avoid careless mistakes by going through every questions with me and teaching me the tehniques to score. One thing he told me that makes me feel encouraged was : " Bernice, I know this is not the best you can score." I cannot helped it and my tears came rolling down my cheeks like waterfalls. Then, my teaher closed the blinds so that nobody from outside can see that I am crying.

I am really thankful to have people around me when I needed help. I truly understands that I AM NOT ALONE. No man is an island and God knows that I will surely be crushed if i face this alone. Therefore, He placed me in a community that I can get help from and also lean on when I am exhausted.

My friends agreed to tackle my problems alongside me. I will score good grades next term. This is my promise to the one most high, my Heavenly father, my parents, my friends and my tutor that I will work hard and I hope i will not dissapoint you guys. To my friends back in Malaysia and also in Australia, please remember me in your prayer..

~end~

No Regrets..

2010-04-07T21:57:00.000-07:00

I have no regrets going to Planetshakers Conference.It's indeed a life-changing conference. I have listened to great preachers such as Reggie Dabbs, John Bevere and later on T.D. Jakes.. The words they preach touched my heart. Although i doze off a lot of times during the message, I still manage to keep myself awake to get the gist of the message.

The praise and worship session was awesome and it was not because of the band of the music.. It's the heart of worship that brings everyone in the arena together and worship the Lord in one voice.

I have been blessed...

2010-03-30T16:24:00.001-07:00

I love my life here so much. I like going to church and everytime i worship, i felt the presence of God. It was hard to walk this path at first, but as time goes by, I began to understand why He put me in this kind of situation. He wants me to experience life-changing incidents. I thank you Lord for providing for me. I have no regrets coming to Australia, meeting new friends, learning new skills and broaden my views.

I am trying to learn to praise God eventhough I am facing difficulties.The power of praise is great and awesome. I am living happily everyday here in Melbourne, with a whole bunch of friends supporting me as well as He leading me. Thank you God for the plans He has made for me.

SPM result is finally out...

2010-03-13T02:40:00.000-08:00

Yea. I got my results but i don't really feel the excitement because i was not there to take the result from my teacher. Sigh. Thank God I manage to do pretty well and i did not let Him nor my parents down. Thank you to all who helped me did well in my exam, those who prayed for me, those who taught me, those who supported me and those who provided for me.

I was so shocked when i got the MESSAGE from my dad saying that I scored 11As in my results. I was hacing my maths lecture that time. During the break, i checked my hanphone and then I was literally screaming in my heart. Then i called my parents but none of them picked up the phone.. Therefore, i called Jan. She reconfirmed me with my result. I hung up and i could not concentrate in class after that.

I was happy and sad at the same time. I felt happy bacause I did not let my family down. However,there;s another part of me that felt that I do not deserve this result. I have never really studied that hard like my friends did yet i get better results. In Albert House (the current place i stayed in), there are three more other Malaysians who scored straight As in their SPM. They are those people who really worked VERY VERY hard before SPM, unlike me.

There are some people who asked Shireen , " Is Bernice a hardworking girl in school? She scored so well." That time Shireen do not know how to answer czuse she knows I am a sluggard, everytime study last minute. Now, when people in ALbert HOuse says I am so clever, so hardworking or when they address me as the straight A girl, i felt so embarrased.

Anyway, I still thank God for His blessings to me. If it was not Him, I would not have scored this well. I think what God is trying to show me is to rely on Him and he will make my path straight. Amen.

7 Days in this new environment...

2010-02-24T04:18:00.000-08:00

7 days have passed. I know this sounds very emo, but I don't know why I have been crying non-stop since Monday. Before I went to school, everything seems okay. I stayed in my mum's friends house and she took me and my mum around Melbourne. It was fun. I haven't felt the pressure yet. I moved in to my hostel on Sunday. It was still okay, My mum is staying in the hostel as well.

Things changed after I came back from school on Monday(sound of thunder). I began to feel very empty and lost. Maybe because in school i was alone cause Shireen is attending a different session. I have to so called 'forced' to socialise. I was not an expert in this. I have been seeing people in my hostel drunk and smoking. All i wanted was to do is stay in my room , socialise if i had to. Of course, there are still some good guys an girls around. Maybe i am still used to the community I have been in back in Malaysia. A sudden change in environment makes me feel empty and lost. I have to start all over again. Thank God Chow is here with me.

Mom left for Sydney but will be back on the 4th of March. I just can't stop crying eventhough i want it to stop so badly. I hope when classes start, i will be able to be strong and focus on my studies. It's weird when my parents call or my friends call, i will be tearing. It's UNCONTROLLABLE ! I really hope this feeling won't last.

Please remember me in your prayer. Thank you.Thank God i found friends which are trusworthy and kind-hearted. Today, one of the girls broke down in tears when she sent her dad back to Brunei. Then we all comforted her and then a guy suddenly said to her: We all came here to study, we will miss our parents, so let us work hard and focus on out studies. We have to help each other out throughtout this period of time.. His words spoke to me.. I was touched at that moment and i didn't really expext that to come out from a guy.. hehe..

The best CNY ever!!!

2010-02-14T17:30:00.000-08:00

This year my CNY is cut short as I will be leaving soon... But i Felt loved everyday by family and friends. Besides getting angpaus for CNY, I got angpaus for my journey in Australia. In some ways, they are trying their best to make my life easier in Australia. They know i was leaving and all of them us there to help me. That makes me wanna CRY.. We only meet once a year or in some special ocassion yet they never forget that I exist. I thank them from the bottom of my heart to the core of it. I am lucky to be born in this family and to have this circle of friends. A big thank you to my heavenly father too.. He is really a great planner and a merciful giver!!

THANK YOU!! I love you all sooooo much!!!

Pictures speaks more than words..

2010-02-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

I know what Family means...

2010-02-04T20:05:00.000-08:00

I will be leaving soon.. I am impressed by my family.. All of them showed me what LOVE is all about. I really appreciate what they do for me. Each of them contributed something to me so that my journey in Australia will be smooth.. I thank them from the bottom of my heart to the core of it..

I felt that I am loved by them and they really care about me. I have a big family and through this I can see that I am not invisible. I am a somebody to them. I knew this all along but after recent incidents, I began to feel the unfailing love displayed by them. I really thank God for such a wonderful and lovely family..

Sometimes I Just WANNA BE BAD!!!!

2010-01-30T01:26:00.000-08:00

I have met people with extreme behavior. They get mad and you and at the same time making you feel super guilty. The funniest thing is you do not think that you did anything wrong and yet you are given this kind of 'treatment'. One thing I learn, life isn't fair. I have been searching for justice all this why and everytime i just FAILED.

There are times i wish i can just fight back, revenge and break all the rules God has set for us. But, i just cannot. I have been bound by all this laws and I know if i return an eye for an eye, this circulation will continue on. Temptations begin to creep in slowly, one step at a time, I have been ignoring them but who knows some day I might give in to temptations. I hope that day won't come when I failed.

Patience is easier said than done. I am not a very patient person and I will try to fight till the end if I know I am not in the wrong. I am always very competative. I am eager to win a fight everytime. My patience now hangs by a thread. Currently, i am struggling with this and I hope I can win this battle by enduring and praying.

Again, I need your prayer. I cannot do this alone. I am sure that God will not give me situations that I cannot endure. I hope that I will not fail Him again.

~the end~

23 days and counting...

2010-01-26T04:33:00.000-08:00

A THANK YOU to Katan for REMINDING me that i have 23 days left in Malaysia. No doubt.. I am going to miss everybody here.. I know you all will miss me too.. :D Anyway, life outside my comfort zone will be like a tropical jungle in the Amazon, filled with deadly creatures that walk, crawl and fly. I will have to be on my 100% attention in order to avoid traps and dangers.

Can you all remember me in your prayer that God will protect Shireen, Dwayne and I while we are in Australia? We certainly need your prayer. Thank you.

I will try my best to send you all updates as frequent as possible. :D

By the way, I will be leaving on the 18th of february while Shireen will be flying off on the 20th of February. If you all are free, do come and send us off. We will be more than happy if you guys turn up.

My new hair cut to face this new world.. :D

I am going to be a COUCH POTATO!!!

2010-01-13T20:37:00.000-08:00

Since i graduated from high school, I have been staying at home all day. Sitting at the sofa watching tv, go online and having my meals is my daily routine. The worst part is, i am putting on weight before I going to Australia. I think by the time I come back to Malaysia, nobody will recognise me anymore as I will look twice as heavy as I am now.

There's one thing good about staying at home. I can spend some time to myself and with my family. Before the holidays, i was buzy doing things, running here and there, rushing all the time and I bearly have time to give a call or drop a message to Kar Wai. I neglected my family too. During this period of time, I focused on building stronger relationships with my friends and family. Thank God, everything is smooth and enjoyable.

Leaving Malaysia is going to be hard. I will miss everything and everyone that makes my life worth living. I am really thankful for a bunch of friends and family that have made me who I am today. I hope that I won't dissapoint them and continue to grow in their absence..

My Love Story...

2009-12-31T23:54:00.000-08:00

A day before camp, I experienced something extraordinary.. I felt that I am loved :)
I had a car accident just in front of the church compound.. At that moment, I was terrified. My mind went blank and I can't think properly. Luckily, there are some church members came out to have a look after hearing the loud clash.. Then, more friends and their families came out and helped me. It's by God's grace that He 'assigned' people to help me when I was helpless.. Things get sorted out pretty quickly.. :D

When I came back from China, this thought struck me. Why on earth will this accidents happen just before i turn into church compound? Then i began to think.. I was shocked by the answer i get. Before that, i was so caught up with the camp preparations and sometimes i felt frustrated working with people and being busy all the time. Sorry if this sounds emotional, I feel out of place sometimes. I felt that God is trying to show me that there are still people who cares about me, there are people that are willing to stand by me and help me along the way. Thank you Daddy!!! This incident will be a reminder for me in future reminding me that God loves me and so do the people around me.. :D

Now, I am sure i will drive extra carefully when i am on the road. :D

COME COME COME!!

2009-12-11T05:30:00.000-08:00

ELIM CAFE IS OPEN TOMORROW AT 11.00am till 3.30pm..

Drop by and check out on the food!!

The food is safe and mouth-watering!!! (guaranteed)

From PIC,

Kevin Koon and Bernice Ong

To the ONE most high....

2009-12-08T07:58:00.001-08:00

This is my 100th post and decided to write this post for God. I want to share it with those who read this blog about how great this God, this father, this friend of mine is. He is truly the Alpha and Omega, the Saviour, the Healer, the Sovereign King and the most important things is the one who loves me..

Anytime when I am in trouble, He is there to help me. He is just one prayer away from me. It is more efficient than the 911 hotline. I've tried praying to Him once when I am lost in the middle of nowhere. To my surprise, God answered my prayer in just less than 24 hours. I have never seen such immediate change of a person in my life!! Only He alone possess the power to do that.. He is the one the wipe my tears away when I am hurt. There will always be people around me, be it friends or relatives to comfort me. With just a simple prayer, nightmares are turned into the sweetest dreams one can ever imagine, turns bitter medicine to sweet and tasty honeys..

This is how GREAT my God is!!! I just want show my appreciation to Him by writing this post. Thank you God for everything that you have done out of Your love for me!!

I love you my Heavenly Father!!

Getting ready to face a NEW WORLD!!

2009-11-30T06:51:00.000-08:00

Well, as you all know, i am going off soon to further my studies in Australia. I am excited to go there to experience a whole new world. Don't get me wrong, I do feel heavy-hearted to leave behind my love ones. I believe God gave me this opportunity to try on something new and learn along the way. I am very grateful that, my parents are very supportive, in fact, they are the ones that started this idea of going overseas.

At first, i was reluctant to go to Australia. I was afraid. I am actually a very timid person (those who know me very well will understand why i said this :D) . I really want to thank a person that changed my perspective towards studying far away from home.. She was a very tough girl that is brave enough to travel away from home while she was at a very young age. What struck the most is the way she thinks, it is totally different from the way Asians think. I guess maybe she was brought up in a Western culture. I always have this wrong perspective saying that what the westerners do are bad , there are a lot of social problems and stuffs like that. All these years, I have failed to see the good side of the culture.

After knowing her, my life has changed. I no longer caged myself in my little small world. Although, it is not obvious but somehow, i felt something different about myself. There are some misunderstandings between us, but from that, i learnt a lot of valuable lessons. Thank you.. Gracias Amiga!!

I am also very fortunate that this time round I have friends that will accompany me to walk this path of my journey. I am lucky to have Shireen and Dwayne to be in Australia with me. Like Dwayne said, together, we will be the BIG THREE (Legolas (me), Aragorn (Shireen) and Gimli(Dwayne). We will conquer Australia!! Haha.. This is truly God's blessings. Thank you Lord!!

I will miss everyone in Malaysia. I will try to call back or send you all emails when I am there. If i can get cheap air tickets, I will fly back to Malaysia!! YOU HAVE MY WORD!! :D Hopefully i can change for the better in Aus!!

Exam's Near.. :(

2009-11-12T01:01:00.000-08:00

SPM is just around the corner but I don't think I am nervous about it yet. All eyes are on my results and sometimes it indirectly pressures me. Although people says : sometimes stress is good.. But to me.. it depends. I hope that I can manage to make my parents proud of my results , probably because I don't want them to scold me.. :D

Well, to all Form 5s who are taking SPM ,

GOOD LUCK!! ALL THE BEST IN SPM!!
LET OUR PENS AND PENCILS BE OUR SWORDS AND SHIELDS
GOD WILL BE OUR COMMANDER!!
WE CAN WIN THIS WAR FOR GOD!!
:D GANBATEH EVERYONE!!!
SEE YOU ALL AT THE FRONTLINE OF THE BATTLEFIELD!!!

The song for all Form Fives!!!

2009-11-04T03:18:00.000-08:00

This song is entitled Step Forth by Wild Chimpz...

WIld Chipmz Rockxx!!!!

2009-10-30T18:31:00.000-07:00

I LOVE WILD CHIMPZZ!!!!!

We completed our performance yesterday and it was a great one!!! I think we did bring the house down!! Haha.. I am glad that God is with us throughout the performance.. Prayer works!! Bonds have been built up because of this performance and I learnt a lot from being a member of a band...
Believe me, what i learnt is nor from our textbooks.. I would like to thank all of my friends who helped us getting the instruments set up, setting up the PA systems and Uncles, Aunties and teachers that helped us!!! Mucho Gracias!! We appreciate your help very much... I would like to thank all our supporters that sreamed and cheered for us.. THANK YOU!!!!!

This will be our last performance in high school.. T.T but it leaves behind memories that will stay in my mind forever.. :D

Be content..

2009-10-20T03:20:00.000-07:00

THINGS THAT I HAVE :
1. God
2. Food to eat/drink
3. Shelter
4. Clothes to wear
5. A fully equipped body to do work
6. Family to love
7. Friends to care for
8. Money to spend
9. Love to share
10. Soul mate
11. the ability to learn
12. the ability to play musical instruments
13. The ability to love others
14. Enemies to love
15. Gospel to share
16. Every single breath that God gives me
17. Every single need God provided me
18. Toys
etc....

I own a lot of things. Thank you God.. I have to learn to be content and try not to covet. :) Contentment brings joy and happiness.. At the same time, we should always look forward and try to improve ourselves. Instead of wanting more from others, why not we try to give out some? No harm done right? Therefore, we should learn not to develop the feeling of wanting more from others and starts giving others some..

:) this is what i learnt from last week Sunday School's lesson that i wish to share it with you all...

SPM is riding on a bullet train to reach me!!!

2009-10-12T04:18:00.000-07:00

There are still 36 days before SPM (if Janice counted correctly). 36 days is not long and neither it is short. Till now I've been indulging myself with card games (monopoly) , board games (chess), the internet and also chit-chatting with my friends. I have lost the urgency to revise every chapter or to do as many exercises as I can. All i want is to PLAY!! I know this is kind of bad and mom will be chasing after me after she saw this post.

I do not know why. Every time after my trial exams (UPSR, PMR and SPM). I lost the mood to study. For me to pick up the book again and start reading is quite hard. This time round, I have to whip myself like how the trainers whip their horses so that I can get back on track with my studies. Only when exam is approaching, the rate of me facing temptations increases (weird but it is supported by solid experiments :D) .. At the eve or exam, TV programs seemed more interesting and outdoor activities seemed excited. What a joke this is !!! It is also during this time that i became more prayerful and having a consistent quiet time. :( I am sorry Lord..

Sigh.. Therefore, from now onwards I have to worked hard!! So that I can get flying colours in my exam and make God, not to forget my family and friends, to be proud of me! Before I can achieve something, I need to pay it with my hard work... Success comes at a price!!! ( a high price- fuh.. expensive) .

~the end~

The two little twin cousins of mine..

2009-09-29T03:25:00.000-07:00

Together they are JC and JJ

They know how to spread out their arms to balance themselves and guess what, they are only two years old. They love driving their parents up the wall, making ugly faces and trying out new things such as licking guitar strings, wearing adult shoes and trying to slide down a slide with their body facing the sky. Haha.. They are sooo cute and I love them!!

Careless Mistakes keep on bugging me.. arrgghh

2009-09-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

Why am I so careless?? How come I can't never complete a paper without any careless mistakes and flawless. Sigh.. I was wondering whether it is in one of my gene. Haha. If it was not because of the mistakes I have made I would have scored quite well for my Modern Mathematics paper. I feel like crawling underneath a rock and die!! Haha. Hope I will do better in my Additional Mathematics paper. If not, I will be skinned alive!!

Now, I'm starting to feel the pressure originated from my mother. I never liked it when she compared me to my friends especially when they score better than me. But i had no choice, I have to tell her how well they did and if they did better than me, she starts to nag me : " Girl, you always watch TV, that's why you cannot do well." or "Girl, what were you thinking when you are sitting for the papers?" and on and on and on.. She never see how well I did in my other papers. I've actually improved in a lot of subjects for this trial exam. She never give me a pat on the shoulder and tell me that : " Good job girl, you've improved! ".. It creates a lot of invisible burdens in my life. Well, I do not blame her for that cause her parents, my grandparents never did that either. Next time when I have my own offspring, I know what am I supposed to do.

I have to work harder now so that i won't disappoint them. Pressure is good if it is treated in a right way. Right?? Fuh.. Have to work like a donkey from now on!! Haha.. Knowing that I have my friends with me (thanks to Kian Aun) , i guess i will learn to handle this is in a PRECIOUS way.. May the Lord be with me as i move into another chapter of my life.. :)

Trying to be someone i am not..

2009-09-23T19:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wish i can have the berry that can show one's true identity ( in case you are wondering, it's from Barbie Mermaida ) . I wish to know what's God's plan for me and who I really am. Since i knew this girl, I've been trying my best to be like her or to beat her. In fact, I'm am the one whose butt was kicked! It sounds crazy but i will always check her Facebook to know what is happening around her. Sometimes, I hope to have what she has (things that money can't buy).
I told my friends that she is talented, pretty, humerous, generous, kind and someone that is very close to God. They threw me back with a question : How well do you know her?? I startled. Actually, i do not know her as deep as i know Janice, Sabrina and Shireen. On second thought, there's another side of her that i do not know. They told me that nobody is perfect and i kind of agree with that but i never knew what weaknesses she has. I am sick of trying to imitate her. I have told myself a billion times not to compare, not to thinks about her, be who I am and be proud of it! I just simply can't do it! With frustration and sadness in me, i do not know how to tackle this problem. I wish I know why I try to be like her. Is it because she possess the strengths that I do not have and God wants me to learn something from her or something else. I am confused and lost.

My friends told me that I am fearfully and wonderful made by God. No one is 100% alike. I kind of agree . They told me not to worry and I am not as bad as i think. They also tell me to be the Bernice that I was born to be. However, it's easier said than done. I guess i have to learn it the HARD way. God, please help me to overcome this , I cannot stop thinking about how to beat her. Why would i want to beat her? That's the question I always ask myself and sadly, I can't find an answer to that. :(

None the less, i will continue to pray for God to show me a way to solve this problem of mine. Maybe it's a test or a trial that God give me so that i will learn perseverance and also to know that He made me for a reason. Why didn't He make me like her? I think because I am different from her and God wants me to be different. Well, I am not sure about that. :( Lord, please show me an answer...

~end~

It's Incredible!!!

2009-09-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

I've watch a lot of Barbie's movies this two days.. It's so unbelievable. I've flew back to the time when i was still a kid.

I've watched :
- Barbie Swan Lake
- Barbie As Thumberlina
- Barbie As Rapunzel
- Barbie The Island Princess
- Barbie As The Princess and the Pauper
- Barbie In a Christmas Carol
- Barbie and the Diamond Castle
- Barbie As the 12 Dancing Princess
- Barbie Mermaida
- Barbie Diaries
- Barbie Fairytopia: Magic Of The Rainbow
- Barbie In the Nutcracker
- Barbie And the Magic of Pegasus
- Barbie Fairytopia
(I wonder did i miss out any of them?? Hmm)

There's a lot of moral values behind these movies. It's good to have young kids watch it so that they can learn something from it especially girls. :D

I love fairy tales but it is not possible in real life. Sigh.

It's a lot of pressure..

2009-09-20T05:19:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i felt like giving up cause a lot of pressures are coming in. That is also one part of me telling myself not to give up, encouraging me that i can do it. It's tough and this is the world I am living in, the background i came from. I feel very frustrated at times. Now, i'm leaving everything to God. Teach me Lord what should i do. Let me do it for your glory.

Trembling now...

2009-09-18T19:43:00.000-07:00

This is not the first time i'm playing guitar for night worship.. But now i am shaking and i do not know why. :( Sigh. Guess i still need a lot of practice and hard work . :) HOpe i won't mess up the worship tonight. If I do, I'm sorry Fei Wong.. :)

Which one is better?? Before of after??

2009-09-16T02:33:00.000-07:00

Before

After

Before

After

Afraid..

2009-09-11T18:10:00.000-07:00

I've been very afraid after that incident. Always worrying that an explosion will happen anytime. Being a big sister, a good girlfriend, a friend , a student and a good daughter is not an easy task. A lot of conflicts are going on in my life makes me just wanna hide myself in one corner and avoid seeing people sometimes. This feeling keeps on growing in me. Every time i pray, this feeling will be gone but only for a while. After that it came back again. It's kind of frustrating for me. Life is full with a lot of conflicts, the key is how we handle it and i suck in handling conflicts. Every thing i do, i have to think about everyone else first whether will i hurt their feelings or will i make them feel uncomfortable. I have to be careful every time. this is why i cannot get rid of my fear. Furthermore, i am a timid person and this make things worse. I do not know what to do now. God, please tell me what to do. T.T

Joke of the day.. From my bio teacher...

2009-09-09T01:26:00.000-07:00

This is a conversation between a British lady and an Arabian man.

The lady : Hello, may i know who is speaking?
The man : I am Ahmad al- Ranjit.
The lady : Sex?
The man : Three to five times a week.
The lady : No, no, no.. I mean male or female.
The man : Male, female and sometimes camel.
The lady : Holy cow!
The man : Yeah, cows, donkeys and horses.
The lady : Isn't that too hostile?
The man : Cow style, horse style, any style la.
The lady : Oh dear...
The man : Dear cannot cause they run too fast.

This is the joke i heard from our bio teacher. Hahaha...

Thank you!!!

2009-08-19T01:01:00.001-07:00

A big thank you to everyone that remember me in their prayers. Indeed, prayer really works! I am feeling much better now and I won't be feeling so relieved now without you guys. Thank you.. *tears*

The past few weeks I have been facing a lot of difficulties in my life that almost knock me out cause all the things happen simultaneously , one by one, most of it hurts me. Thank God, He showed me how to handle my feelings and I started to depend him more and more. He showed me that I am not alone and that He will be with me. I have learnt a lot of valuable lessons through this period of time. My faith in Him grew stronger and I hope it will continue to grow.

I am someone who struggles in making big decisions like what i want to do after my studies. I am afraid to make decisions because I am afraid that I won't be able to turn back if the decision i made was wrong. Sometimes I can't even choose which event i want to go. During this period of time, I think it's God's plan that I have to choose between two things. I was very confused and lost at first. And then Wan Li told me to leave it all to God and asked Him to show me the right path to walk. I started praying and every time i pray, miraculously, there is something that calm me down and after i prayed i felt better. I can think properly. After some time of praying, God showed me what He wants me to do and I did it. So far so good, I am happy with the decision I made. Praise the Lord!

Later in life, I am sure that i will be standing on a crossroad again and i need to choose AGAIN. but this time round, i think I can handle it with maturity and I will seek God first before i make any major decision.

Why????

2009-08-12T04:24:00.000-07:00

Why did she do that to me!!!!
Why did these happen???
At the wrong time...
I lost my mood to study...
And trial is very close...
Why did he did that too??
How come he don't know how to say no!!
Or maybe he is the one that started it!!!
Arrggggghhhh..
My heart is filled with frustration and sadness...
This is beyond what i can bear!!!
My first time in my entire life that i felt that my heart was zapped by lightning and it turned into ashes...
Never in my life i felt that I can trust no one on earth...
Never in my life i wish I can scream my lungs out..
Never in my life I wish i don't know them......
But, now i experienced all of them....

Friends ... Please pray for me.. I need it very much..

A tough week for me!!

2009-07-31T19:16:00.000-07:00

This week is indeed the toughest week of the year for me. I faced relationships problems, family problems and study problems. It's really tough for me. Mom keep asking me questions that i do not want to or don't know how to answer. It made me kind of frustrated and lost. i know my trial is coming but i just cannot concentrate on my studies.I guess this is the time God want to mould me into the shape He planned for me. Therefore, i have to be strong to face any rainstorms in my life, be prepared to face any unwanted circumstances. God, please help me to go through it and I know you will not give me anything beyond what i can bear.

Yesterday, my teacher said something that struck me. She said : When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. This is very true in our life and i began to understand this phrase more . Life is not always a bed of roses, it has its ups and downs, just like a roller coaster.

Now prayer is very important to me. It's prayer that keeps me going , it's prayer that cheer me up in my times of my worries.

So, to all who read this post, i hope you guys can remember me in your prayer. Thank you.

Wedding Day's Photo!!

2009-07-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

Canteen Day's Photo!!!

2009-07-28T01:40:00.000-07:00

My New Song : Daddy Loves You

2009-07-22T06:30:00.001-07:00

Everyday when you turn on the TV,
You will see many sad faces tearing in pain,
I don't know about you,
I know I'm afraid.
There's a deep sorrow in my heart,
That doesn't seem to heal.

Then,
I heard this sweet voice in my head that says

Don't be afraid my dear,
Daddy has got you by my side,
Don't be afraid my dear,
Daddy will keep you save and warm.
You're the diamond in my heart,
I will not let you go,
Daddy loves you no matter what,
Even though all the things you loved..
Is gone.

Thank you!!!

2009-07-19T06:16:00.000-07:00

I love it!! i just love it!! Thank you to everyone who sang me birthday songs, ate birthday cakes with me, gave me presents, prepare birthday surprises for me, wish me Happy Birthday!! I really appreciate that from the bottom of my heart to the core of it. I was indeed very touched!! A big thank you to my dad for trying to give me an unforgettable birthday present. Although it failed, but i still wanna say I LOVE YOU DADDY!!! I am lucky to be in a group of people who cared for m, loved me with all their hearts. T.T.. I will leave with a heavy heart for sure!! The one thing i regret is.. I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES OF THOSE PRECIOUS MOMENTS.. Haiz.. What a waste!! But, it's OK cause i have already capture all the beautiful moments in my minds and i don't think i

I'm also happy that i get to play the guitar during night worship. It was my first time playing guitar during worship sessions and some more it is on my birthday!! Yeah!! It was a very good experience for me.. Got to be in a band with Ling, Chow, Vivien and Kian Aun.. It's God grace that we can play and worship together. Amen!

Thank You Everyone!!!!!! *touched*

I love today!!!

2009-07-15T06:58:00.000-07:00

Thank you Lord once again for such a fun and memorable day!! This is my last birthday with you guys.. I really love it!! No doubt!! Hope you all have lots of fun too..

I Love today Because :
1. The time that we spent together
2. The people who is willing to come
3. The presents i received
4. The cake
5. The surprise
6. My gang
7. Lord the Almighty
8. My parents
9. The ones I love
10. The shirts we bought

I JUST LOVE THIS DAY!!! *screams*

Cool TIme..

2009-07-14T02:50:00.001-07:00

On August 7 , 2009
> At 12hr 34 minutes and 56 seconds on the 7th of August this year, the time
> and date will be
> 12:34:56 07/08/09
>
> 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
> This will never happen in your life again??
> Amaze your friends..... be the first 2 tell them.

Oh man.. It's so hard to believe..

2009-07-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe my dad said that!! I was wondering since when he threw away those typical Chinese thinking??? He was very open-minded. He invited Koon to stay over at my house so that he can help me take care of my house while my mom and dad are not at home. My jaw dropped when i heard that.

l l !!!
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Below are the conversation me and my dad had :

Dad : When is your birthday?
Ber : This coming Saturday.
Dad : Really?? I will not be here.
Ber : Yupe. How can you forget my birthday?
Dad : You better ask Koon to come over and stay so that he can take care of you and your
brothers.
Ber : Are you serious dad??
Dad : Of course.
Ber : Since when you become so open-minded?
Dad : Nothing geh. Go and ask him to come and stay.

~end~

That's what happened.. And then at night, my cousin brother called and asked for my help during his wedding. I have to miss canteen day for his wedding. T.T.. But i think it is worth it.. :)
He asked koon to go to his wedding as well!! I was scared that time cause all my relatives are going to be there. If Koon goes, it will be like introducing him to my family. My cousin brother is willing to give him a place during the dinner. But i was scared and it ended up koon not going. Pheww.. It was a close one..

I love my gang...

2009-07-10T02:10:00.000-07:00

Koon and I

JBS

Animal Kingdom

Me and my bro

I like this pic cause my dad don't like his pictures to be taken..

I'm sorry if i have ever did anything to you all. It's found being with you guys an now i have to official gang - JBS and also the Animal gang (screams)..

This post is specially for you all as this is the 70th post of my blog.

Firstly, I would like to say sorry to Chow and Vivien because I suddenly said i wanna join the performance after i quit. That time maybe i was too angry and i don't have the moos to perform anymore. But after the ' talk' :) , i felt better and i felt like i wanna join back the team. I'm so sorry. Can you all forgive me ( Cute Face). Haha.

I also wanna thank Jan for being my counselor and also Ooi, Chow, Ling, Anjoe an Vivien. Thank you for being my friends and being there with me twenty-four- seven.. I love you guys a lot. I really thank God that He provided me with friends and situations that i can learnt to become a better person. I love you Lord!

I also wanna thank Kar Wai for comforting me while i was sad and be there with me when i cry. Love you alot too.

Last but not least, i wanna thank the Lord for giving me two famillies, one is my real family another one is EY. Mom and Dad worked very hard to send me to Australia to further my studies. Although i always fight with my brothers but sometimes i found out that they actually cared for me and obey me when mom and dad are not around. Love them too..

As for all the EYers, thank you all for your care for me.. It's has been and it will be a pleasure having you all as my family . You guys lighten up my days, gave me wings to be who i am.

I once said to God that if He take me to heaven now, i would not have any regrets as i have already owned everything that i wanted. :)

~end~

The Biggest Loser!! Great Show!!

2009-06-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

This is really a life changing reality show for a lot of people. When I first saw the name of this show, it thought it is some kind of show which makes fun of people or embarrass people. In fact, it is a show that encourages people who are facing overweight problems and give them a push in getting out of their messed up lives. A lot of obese people face a lot of problems in their daily lives such as : getting isolated from their community of people, dare not looked at themselves in the mirror, turn to food when they are stressed and so on. They are living in a non-healthy lifestyle.

Through this show, their face a 180 degrees change. The selected people will enter a ranch for sometime. There are a few trainers in the ranch to help them to lose weight through exercising and a healthy diet. They will face a lot of temptations as the house they are living in is filled with cakes, chocolates, cheese and all sorts of food that will make you gain weight. They have to learn how to resist temptations. I personally like this part of the program as it helps the participants to overcome the temptations of food when they go back to their lives outside the ranch.

What strike me the most is when a guy who is a doctor said this : I came in to this ranch is to lose weight so that i can inspire my patients to do the same. If i can do it, so can my patients and everyone else. " This guy came into this ranch, join this program, his main purpose is to inspire his patients, everything he do, he put others before him. Just like our Lord, He loves us so much that even if He can only save one person in this world, He will still sent his son down to earth to die for sinners. If I were in God's shoes, I will rather let the one sinner die than to sacrifice my one and only beloved son. A big hand for our Lord!!

I have been doing much thinking lately....

2009-06-18T23:31:00.000-07:00

Yes. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. A thought struck me today. My Chinese teacher Pn. Low said this today : " People always like to watch happy endings in movies and novels. They never like bad endings where the bad guys triumph over the good guys or the two lovers have to be parted from each other. "

Then, i started to ponder upon the things that my teacher said. I myself also love happy endings. I think it's because we can not find this kind of endings in reality. Therefore, they are looking forward to seeing happy endings in movies and novels. Let's say if a movie has a bad endings, people will surely make bad comments about it especially Chinese drama.

Apart of that, i also think that the producer feared God too. They cannot produce movies that said that the bad guys won and the world fell into the hands of the evils. This is good that the producer feared God if not i cannot imagine what kind of movie will we be watching in the future.

Second thing, i felt very happy lately cause i found that i have a lot of friends that are always supporting me, wiping my tears, sharing my joy, crapping with me and being there with me no matter what happened. I thanked God that they can be my friends. I also wanted to have more friends and perhaps i should look around and build deeper relationships with friends that I have already had. Sometimes, i really felt that i am the luckiest person on earth because i have you all. I love you guys very much!!

Happy Anniversary!!

2009-06-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy. We stood the test of time!! It's already a year now since we first started this relationship. I thanked God that He is always there with us through out the whole year. i benefit a lot from this relationship. To be honest, it's not easy to handle a relationship cause it's not about one person only. I have to care about my partner's feelings. And when things get ugly, both of us have to think of a solution to undo the mistakes we made. I learnt to be patient and how to care for others.

We faced a lot of ups and downs but i thanked God that he made a way for me to handle this problems. It makes me a stronger person. To me, it is part of a learning process, it helped me to grow a lot.

We had a little celebration yesterday at something special restaurant with my gang- Shireen, Janice and Sabrina. I have to take this opportunity to say thank you to them as well as they helped me a lot by comforting and giving me advice when I'm down. I also want to thank all the EY'ers, Kian Aun, Wan Li, Liew Kar Wai, Kok Ming, Wan Wai and Uncle William and all my friends who took care of Kar Wai and I. You guys are the best!!

Pictures..

2009-06-17T05:23:00.001-07:00

Shireen having problem doing the colour blind test..

Look at that...

Acting to be interested in undand-undang

These are the pictures we took when we sit for our undang seminar(i do not know what it's called). The people in the room was looking at us when we are taking the photos. We are kind of embarrassed cause we felt like people from the kampung who is in the city for the 1st time. Anyway, we enjoyed ourself very much.

Clueless..

2009-06-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

Lately, i'm troubled by some sort of feelings. Feelings that i do not know why I am having. I met a friend. I always have the desire to send a message to her through facebook cause that's the only way we communicate. When this friend of mine does not reply(i dun think my friend has ever replied), I feel offended. It's not because he/she is busy or what. I really dislike this feeling. Normally i won't feel offended when my other friends don't reply me. However, it is different with this friend of mine. I do not know how to explain. We are not close friends and yet...

It's kind of weird. I have tried leaving it aside but i cannot. I don't understand why.

I love Power Lab!!!

2009-06-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

Say Cheese....

Yung Xin and Weng Yee

My zai zai and lui lui

Amelia, Mika and I

Jeremy, Gabriel and I

Alicia and I

Mika Miyata with all Sparki's group leader's name tag

My bro, me, Adeline and Rachel

My bro and I

Koon and I

Oops.. my mouth is fulled with jelly....

Group Leaders...

Yeah!!

Sparki's Group Leaders..

Ryan Teh and me..

Mika Miyata and Amelia

The Finale

During these 5 days, I learnt a lot from the kids and the helpers during Elim's Children's Holiday Club! I learnt how to handle special kids, how to cope with kids and how to teach the children the right thing to do. I built a lot of bridges with the kids. I was very touched on the last day that some kids asked me for my email address, asked me to take a picture with them and a Japanese girl gave me her address in Japan so that i can write or email her.

I also made a lot of new friends like Jerwin, Dong Guo, Si Wei and Su Yin. Some of them I knew a long time ago but i did not take the time to know them. But through this holiday club, i get to know them more.

I told Shireen that i enjoyed being a helper in this camp because i felt very happy being with the kids. They are so naive, cute, intelligent and not to mention naughty. They reminded me the times when i was a kid. I love my group so much! *SPARKI* is the best!!!

At first Uncle Jimmy was upset because the number of people signing up is very little. But in the end we got 100 over people and we have to cancel some people's name. Praise the Lord!! It's by God's grace that this holiday club is a sucess. AMEN!!

Finally, it has come to end. I hope that the relationship that we build with them will never come to an end!!

Pasar Malam's Night Out!!!

2009-06-03T06:23:00.000-07:00

WE did it!!! scream

2009-06-01T07:44:00.000-07:00

The Committees..

It has finally come to and end. The 10 committees can finally take a rest during the holidays. It has been a fun time working with you guys and also the 3 from 3 CLs. I hope that they can really benefit from this camp and they can pass their knowledge to the next generation so that girl guide or ranger will continue to sparkle like last time.

This camp really brought us together. I can see changes in everybody. We became more mature and the bond we built is priceless. I will treasure this friendship that we have until i kiss the world goodbye. I love you guys a lot!!! I thanked God that made everything happened in my life. Thank you for everything that He had planned for me so that i can grow into a better person.

During the first day of girl guide training camp, in the morning, there was rain and the committees were very worried that it might ruined the programs that we had planned. Vivien, Ling, Chow and I decided to pray and ask God to provide us a nice weather to carry out our activities. He did! And we managed to have our backwoodsman and also our station games without the need to worry about the weather. Amen!

Personally, i benefit a lot from this camp. From planning until the day of the camp, i have never regretted. It thought me to lead, to work with others, to listen and to teach. It was indeed a great experience for me. I also get to be strict to my juniors. Thank you Lord for everything!!!

I also had a great time at chow's house where Vivien, Ling, Anjoe and I had a sleepover in her house. We slept together and we crapped together. no doubt, it was a great experience!!

We had a great time today!!

2009-05-23T05:53:00.000-07:00

The food my patrol cook..

Our little fire...

Agent 007

Having Fun

Jennifer and I setting up the things needed for Life Line

Getting over something..

Life Line

Life line..

Tent Pitching..

Pitching tent..

Had a lot of fun squirting water!!

I thought camp will not be as fun as it seems. However, today our campers gave us their best while the activities were going on. The activities we planned was a success!! All the committee members are very happy about the teamwork, creativity and surviving skills our campers showed us. We thought we might have a lot of trouble setting up the fire during backwoodsman. But, every patrol managed to finish cooking their food before the time stated. We thanked God for the fine weather where we can carry out our activities smoothly. Our teacher even praised us even though last time she does not acknowledge what we do. We managed to let her see our good behaviors.

Personally, i had a lot of fun 'bullying' the campers as i am one of the game mistresses. While we were playing life line, i squirted water gun at them like nobody's business. They were like screaming and yelling when the water hits on their face and armpit. I did it! :) It was indeed a great experience for me to learn to be patient because i have to repeat the instructions for more than 50 times. Thank God for letting everything run smoothly.

During backwoodsman, I did not really participate in setting up the fire. I only let my campers know the theory but i did not join them in the practical part. I was busy with making my campers cool by putting a handkerchief soaked with wet, cool, refreshing lotion on their face. My friends said I was like a mother taking care of my children. No doubt, i had a great time to day!!

Yesterday i went to a Japanese Restaurant!!!

2009-05-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

I secretly snapped a photo of Ah Niu..:)

Eating with a cute baby...

Beef

Salmon

Oyster!!

Set dinner!!

Sushi..

Yesterday was a very special day for me.. At first, i'm down and then at night, my mum brought me to a Japanese restaurant. The food there are superb! I got a chance to eat a very huge and raw oyster and also finger licking good sushi!! The most important thing is that i saw two artist there!!! The first one is *AH Niu* The second one is Gary Chao Ge.. I was stunt when ah niu walked into the restaurant. I secretly snapped a picture of him. I didn't really spotted Gary but the boss of the restaurant said he is there with his baby son... It's so unbelievable...

Not in the mood today... but then...

2009-05-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

Today, I'm very down cause of some personal problems, school problems and many more.. But then i heard this song.. It's called come to Jesus.. I had a great impact on me.. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks.. This is a great song..

Come To Jesus

Weak and wounded sinners,
Lost and left to die,
O raise your hand
For love is passing by.
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
And live.

And like a newborn baby,
Don't be afraid to crawl,
And remember when you walk
Sometime you'll fall.
So fall on Jesus,
Fall on Jesus,
Fall on Jesus
And live.

Sometimes the way is lonely,
And steep and filled with pain,
So if your sky is dark
And pours the rain.
Then cry to Jesus,
Cry to Jesus,
Cry to Jesus
And live.

And when the love spills over,
And music fills the night,
And when you can't contain
The joy inside.
Then dance for Jesus,
Dance for Jesus,
Dance for Jesus,
And live.

And with your final heartbeat,
Kiss the world goodbye,
Then go in peace
And laugh on glory's side.
And fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus ,
And live.

Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus,
And live.

TE AMO Pn. Cheah!!!

2009-05-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

I met my primary teacher when i was eating *Nga Choi Kei* in somewhere near Wah Nam.. Therefore, i grabbed the opportunity to take a picture with her.

Meeting her reminds me the days when she used to push me very hard to improve my Mathematics. There was once during an exam, I failed my Mathematics. After the day, my life was very miserable. Every time when she wrote some questions on the blackboard, without fail, she will call me out and do. Of course sometimes I don't know how to do and she will nag me a little.

After some time, there was this Mathematics competition where everybody needs to take part in. To my surprise, I got no. 4 / 5 . I was so happy. Since that day onwards, my teacher did not call me out again and my Mathematics improved a lot. Thank you teacher!!!

AMIGAS , AMIGOS, POR SIEMPRE!!!!

2009-05-14T23:37:00.001-07:00

Thank You Lord...

2009-05-13T23:47:00.001-07:00

Pic: When we reach out our hand, God will reach out His and take us away from our nightmares...

Our Lord really listens!! He really answers our prayer... Yesterday.. I prayed a prayer..And He answered it.. I'm sorry i cannot tell you all what is it about.. But.. It's truly wonderful!!!I was sad a few minutes ago.. But then I'm OK now!!! Thank you so much Lord!!!

I copied this from a friend's blog... It is about EY...

2009-05-08T16:50:00.000-07:00

Elim Youth or EY we called ourselves,
A group of young Christians in Elim Gospel Hall,
Lead by someone who called himself "The Saint",
Uncle William Chang is his real name,
"No need to work?!", that's his favourite phrase,

It's never a one man show in EY,
He's the engineer for the success of EY,
And he's Tan Kian Aun,
With the help of a lovely wife, Mrs. Winnie,
the only lady in EY,

Think of goat's hair, think of him,
Think of PDA phone, think of him,
Liew Kar Wai the owner of these things,
We need to pay for almost everything in this world,
But we can get free medical advices from Dr. Eric Yeoh,

One Way Jesus, You're the only one that we would live for!,
Wan Wai! Wan Wai!,
You're the only girl that Kok Ming would dream of!,
Kok Ming and Wan Wai,
As it is in the story, Beauty & The Beast,

She talks, she craps, she advices,
She is blessed with a talented tongue,
No wonder Jennifer Chang opted PR as her job,
He's cool, calm, and definitely a good listener,
No wonder Chris and Jenn are so in love,

All of us in EY love eating good food,
But we definitely can't eat without her guidance,
Yian Yan the food science student,
Then if guidance is never enough,
We have Jin Ann who is actually very good in cooking,

He's the guy that can never stops playing and fooling around,
He's the one that brings noisiness and laughter thus making EY livelier,
He's Clarence Choong,
He's the youngest PHD holder in the world,
Goh Cheng Fai our EY professor,

She’a cheerful girl, a girl that will never be shy to talk to anyone,
Daphne Choo is a girl that everyone loves,
She has the prettiest and sweetest smile,
A smile that brightens up everyone's day,
This lovely girl is Tsuey Xin,

We can always see him wearing a Man Utd jersey wherever he goes,
He loves football a lot and he's a die-heart Man U fan,
This guy is Andrew Chun,
He got one of the most macho name in EY,
Matthew Labrooy that's how his name sounds,

He does not like any particular sports,
But he love sports, confused?,
Vincent Chan just loves to exercise,
He can't sing or dance like Ricky Martin,
But he got a name of Ricky Tan,

Our country’s future best Biology teacher,
Cikgu Bio, Cikgu Alan Wong,
But all of us call him Fei Wong,
No doubt she’s very thin,
Michelle Tan the chicken little,

He's the guy that would stand at a corner like a stone,
Doing nothing but rehearsals for his own self-made MV,
Kevin Koon the 20 cent,
Tallest in the EY room,
Adrian Goh the giraffe,

He's the best in scoring goals in whatever games
Kent Lee the Chicken King,
Whenever we go to the beach,
Whenever we look at the waves hitting the sea shores,
We will think of Wai Kit with his belly wave,

Soft in words, humble in action,
Shaun is really a nice guy,
Be fruitful and multiply that's what the Bible says,
This girl loves to have a lot of kids,
Kar Men is this little lady,

Brother and sister,
They share the same similarities,
Tall and thin,
Glenn Low and Amelia Low,
No one will ever doubt that the are brothers and sisters,

She has a lot of nicknames,
But they shall never be revealed here,
Eliza Lee should be thanking her lucky stars,
She's quiet and shy in EY,
Yi Zhen definitely has more to learn from,

Miracles and wonders do happen everyday,
They came out from the same stomach,
Shared the same food and nutrients for around 9 months,
And of course they share the same surname,
Chow Yip Kai and Chow Li Qi are twins,

A talkative girl,
Adeline Chang is this little girl,
He's good in ping pong,
Even if he's playing with a broken hand,
And he's Bertine Ong,

We could always see them together,
They do share the same interests,
And they share the same heart,
A heart made of kindness and gentleness,
Bernice Ong and Shireen Chow are very good friends,

He's a guy that you can depend on,
Let it be anything,
Yan Hoe is definitely a great friend to have,
Steven Chang that's how his name sounds,
And words just can’t describe him.

She's another quiet girl in EY,
And of course most of the guys do love girls that talk less,
It's a good thing for you, En Li,
He likes Ronaldo and supports Man Utd,
No wonder Samuel can mix well with most of the guys in EY,

Change of tone...

Our lives are never a journey alone,
We always have God walking with us everyday,
And not to be forgotten our family and friends as well,
Every time when we fall,
We would have someone to pick us up,
And let us stand back on our own feet,
Someone that would lend a shoulder for us to lean on when we are sad,
Someone to listen to our thoughts and advise us when we are at road end,
They are the ones that our heavenly Father gave us,
Someone to guide us in our lives,

The friendship and the relationship that we build upon in EY,
It is not built on the sands of a beach,
It is build on the foundation of God's love,
A love that can never be broken,
This kind of love blooms only once in our lives,
And burns for a lifetime,
It's not about holding hands,
But it's about holding hearts,
Holding it tightly and never let it go,
A love that lasts a lifetime,

Together we share our tears and laughter,
All the times we had together,
Every moment, every second,
We shall cherish it with all our hearts,
There might be times when there are misunderstanding and arguments,
But these are the things that made us grow,
Things that made our memories so wonderful and colourful,
And they are priceless,
It would stay in our hearts whenever and wherever we go,
A memory that will be with us forever and ever,

With all of us growing with God everyday,
When every step that we take is a step closer to God,
Let us hold our hands and hearts together,
Let us share everything that we have,
Be it good or bad times,
Let us not leave anyone behind,
Even when there's death that set us apart,
But we shall still walk together towards the door of heaven,
Till then, we shall meet again,
It is a journey that never ends.

I cannot believe that!!!

2009-05-05T00:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry about the picture. It's a bit blur.

Yesterday, Vivien told me that a guide in MC asked her to record our song and send it to her as the one she recorded is quite blur. I was shocked. Vivien said that the girl kept on listening to that song, day and night, 24-7 non-stop. I was shocked cause even Vivien and I sometimes feel bored of singing it. Then, someone that we do not know wrote the lyrics of the song on a table in Omega tuition centre . Vivien and I literally dropped our jaw.Last week, one of my school teacher walked up to Vivien and congratulate her about the song. We were so happy. We were almost floating in the air. I would never forget this experience.

This is how the song looks like :

THE WORLD IS CHANGING

When I was a little girl
My father used to bring me to the park
I used to lay on the ground
I looked up on the cloudy sky
I can see the birds are flying
Butterflies' dancing
How i wish these happy moments
Will come back to me

Now that I have grown up
I wish to fly my way to the past
Look at the people all around
I wonder how thing's change so fast
Sunshine's fading clouds are pouring
Mother earth crying
How I wish these happy moments
Will come back to me

The world is changing
Faster than a bullet train
Everyday when i wake up
It's dark and scary
We must change it back
To the way it used to be
So come on everybody
We can do it

So
People, people come together
Guides and scouts
All together
We can make a difference
If we do our part
People, people come together
Everybody work together
We can make this world a better place
For you and me

Something to share...

2009-04-20T02:19:00.000-07:00

I felt God's presence among us when we are in SMK MC. We went through a lot of difficulties and God showed me that He is a God that provides.

I remembered that time when Foo Lee Ping told Chow that the modern cooking team did not bring any salt. We all know that salt is a very important ingredient to give the food its taste. They were very panic and without salt i don't think they can cook.

Chow said: " Wait a minute, maybe i have salt in my bag ."

I was stunt with what she says then i told ling. I said : " Why did chow bring salt? What does she wanna use it for? " I was very puzzled.

Chow said : " The decorations she brought to decorate a dining table (the one where people put salt and pepper in it) might have some salts left in it.

And then, she went to search for it. She found that there's still salt in it and the team can use it to cook. We were amazed by what God can do. After that, chow, me, vivien and ling thanked God so much for providing what we need. I believed that without Him, we won't be able to achieved what we have achieved. God also showed me that prayer works. Amen!

SMK MC Gathering.........

2009-04-19T00:47:00.000-07:00

Me and Vivien with the Best Highlights for Singing Trophy

Yesterday, I went for a Guides and Scouts gathering in SMK MC. I had a fun time .

I took part in three competition : Sketch, Dance and Singing. I was very busy yesterday as i have to change my outfit very fast cause this three competitions is very close. Therefore, from 11 a.m until 6.15 p.m. i'm always running back and forth to change my outfit. First is dancing competition. Amelia Ling , Hong Ing and I took part in this competition. We are very afraid before we go up to perform. I was having a bit of headache. But, when we are on the stage, I can hear my friends and juniors shouting for us and they gave us the spirit to dance. And guess what...AMC won the BEST DANCE award!!!!

Next, was singing compeition. Vivien and I wrote a song for this competition. Vivien was singing the melody while i'm singing the harmony. According to my friends, we did a great job and i was very happy with our performance as the whole hall cheered for us. We faced a lot of difficulties setting up the keyboard and carrying the heavy amplifier. But all that does not matter anymore. And we won the BEST SINGING award!!!

The last one is sketch competition. It did not turn out well cause we have a little bit problem with the PA. So, we didn't get anything . However, because of this sketch we managed to build our friendships and i think this is more important than winning the award. Well done to all the sketch team member.

AMC Rangers won the following awards :
1. Best Highlights for Dance
2. Best Highlights for Singing
3. Best Scarf Design
4. Most Discipline
5. Iron Guide
6. Best Commander

We are consider very good cause we are competing against guys and not girls as we are the only girls school taking part. Others are boys schools or co-ed schools. We won the same amount of prizes with SMI. But, they got the overall champion which is 8 feet tall. Although we did not win, we are still very happy with the results we achieved. Thank you God for everything that he has blessed the team with.

I am who I am

2009-04-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

I tried to be like someone else by changing myself but i don't think it work. I just cannot be like some one else because i'm Bernice Ong and everyone is unique in this world with different personalities. I guess i have to be my ownself for God made each and every one a unique person and He loves us all... I guess i have to think like this.. so i won't compare myself with others.

Have Faith in God

2009-03-10T02:44:00.000-07:00

Well, we had a few practices already. But , last night something happened and the situation was very tensed. There were a few mistakes or should i say some how the feeling is just not there. There were some conflicts between a few members. Then, Kar Men suggested that they voice out what they are not comfortable about and work it out.

After that, we stopped practising and we started praying. It's good to pray and don't know why i felt that God has comforted out hearts after we prayed. I believed lifting everything up to God is a wise thing to do as we are not the ones who are controlling but He is.

Just want to share something to all who is reading my post. There was one time i had a struggle with some which is very close to me. I am always mad at him but it is not his fault. It's just that i am not patient to bear with him not replying my messages. I've seek adcives from my friends, youth advisors and so on. I did solve my problem for a while. But the same problem happened again and again. I'm really very very sad that time. Until, one day i did something really stupid. I totally ignored him by not messaging him-nothing at all. That time, i was messaging another friend and she is with him at that time. She asked me ,"Why are you having this kind of problem and it's not settled for so long? You have to lift up all you troubles alone and you have to trust that God can help u. You cannot settle in ways that you think is right. What if it's the wrong way."

After listening to her, i realised that all this while i asked for advices and i did prayed to God but i do not have the faith to trust in him. After seeing that message, i prayed to the Lord asking him to show me the way to settle this problem. I also asked for his forgiveness as all this while i'm handling things in my OWN way. After praying, my problem really did settled and i can feel the joy in my heart. From then on, the same thing happened but i do not have any problem handling it.

Thinking back at what happened, i feel that God created this kind of problem to me over and over again because he want me to learn to trust him and obey him. So friends, wherever you face troubles just lift it up to God and do it in God's way. Or if you are not happy with anything, voice it out and pray about it. It really really helps. Trust me.

2009-02-18T02:02:00.000-08:00

Check This Out...

2009-02-17T03:54:00.001-08:00

The Mechanical Contrivium: Bernice

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Bernice!

Medieval knights put the skin of Bernice on their sword handles to improve the grip!
Baby swans are called Bernice!
Worldwide, Bernice is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects.
Grapes explode if you put them inside Bernice!
A Berniceometer is used to measure Bernice.
While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their Bernice!
Bernice cannot jump.
There is no lead in a lead pencil - it is simply a stick of graphite mixed with Bernice and water!
All swans in England belong to Bernice.
Bernice never said 'Play it again, Sam'.

What I've been through this week

2009-02-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

This year's Sukan Tara i scored a total of 6 marks for four events... 2 marks for high jump, 2 marks for long jump, 1mark for 100m and 1 mark for lontar peluru. This is the happiest year for me as i get to score in every event. I have never scored 2 marks in long jump. But i did it....Hurray!!!

Well, another happy thing for me that happened is today's Valentine's Day celebration with the EYs(elim youths).. I had a lot of fum eating and mixing around. I did not bathe from morning until 9 something..Phew.. the smell... this is the time where i can release my stress and do crazy stuffs.

Now the sad and stressful stuffs. This week, i've been facing a lot of patient problem with my blue hose marching team members. They are always using my weakness, they know i won;t scold them so they always ponteng and give me lame excuses like tution. I told them from the first day that they have to sacrifice their tuition time for the last week of practice. Now, they tell me they cannot come next week. I was burning hot when they keep on arguing with me with a very chuen tone. I think that's because i treat them too friendly since day 1. My friends ask me to be more strict but i just can't and i don't know why. It's simply not my nature. I will only show my true colours to my brothers. Below are some conversations with girl A

A: I cannot come on Monday.
Ber: Y??
A: I got tuition.
Ber: i thought is say no more tuition for next week. You have to sacrifice something if u won't to work this out.
A: I don't want to miss any tution.
Ber: You have to come. Besides you, there are many people sacrificing their time .
A: Ok. If you want me to come on Monday , then wednesday i won't come.
Ber: (burning) Y?
A: Tuition
Ber: you can go home earlier.
A: Friday i also cannot come cause i got librarian duty.
Ber: That one can be replaced.
A: Cannot arr, i'm a new librarian cannot miss duty.
Ber: Can geh. trust me.
A: I don't know ar.. if i can replace then i come. If i cannot replace then i don't come.
(then, i was burning, but i didn't say anything. I dare not scold her. I wonder why.)

I also have some issues with our ranger teacher. She wants us to do our duty but she tell us on that day so we did not manage to get people to come for duty. Then she blamed chow. I was there then i kind of argue a little with her. Then she says why we did not wear uniform as an excuse to shoot us back. she expect us to go class by class and check see whether who didn't wear. Haiz. Those important stuffs like learning survival skills she don't let us to do but those minor minor mistakes she will pin point it out. Help!! Chow and I got so stressed up because of her.

This week is filled with happiness and sadness. I think that's why people say life is like a roller coaster...

Ber is stressed out...

2009-02-11T04:27:00.000-08:00

They say student's life is very easy... but i do not agree with that...

Lately, i've been feeling stressed out with what I am doing right now. The teachers put high hopes on this year's blue house marching team. I guess that's because this is her last year being the head teacher of blue house. She is a perfectionist. It makes life harder for me. Luckily, my assistant is very helpful. Although I am a leader, but i cannot make my own decision. I am afraid that my decision is wrong and it will lead the whole marching team to their doom. It's very hard for me to become a leader as i'm not that kind of material. I'm not like chow, I cannot lead and i have to ask my junior whether am i right or wrong. I feel a bit useless in being a leader...

P/S: Keep me in prayer. Thank You.

Patience is bitter, but the fruit is sweet...

2009-02-04T06:04:00.000-08:00

As u all know, i'm not a very patient person. Especially to those i love. I've been experiencing a lot of these situation for the past 4 weeks when things started to change. I some how just cannot accept the reasons he/she gave me. My friends told me i'm controlling too much but i cannot help it. Until now i'm still struggling with this issue.

Today, i walk past my school's corridors and i saw this phrase. This phrase shows me the need to be patient and what will i get from it. I've been praying for quite some time about this issue but God did not make my anger or fear go away. Instead, i think God created a lot more situations like his for me to handle but i don't seem to handle it well. My friends told me that i'm controlling too much, therefore, i've been using all kinds of way to make myself busy doing things or sleeping.

Yesterday, i still think i can get over this issue after I've listened to Janice's advise. It make me forget about my anger for a while. But after some time, the same thing came back to me again, it's like a super glu glued to me. Today, everything seems fine but just now things turned bad again. I don't know how many patience i have left before i blow up. I keep on reminding myself to let go. Sometimes it worked, but most of the time i failed to control it and i will say something that i did not attempt to say. I'm sorry. When someone is angry they tend to say things which they don't really mean.

I've collected alot of advises from my friends how to be patient but the practical part is super duper hard for me especially to those i love. I think i just have to keep on praying and learn at the same time. Patience is a very difficult lesson(trust me, i know). Everytime we have any conversations, we will either end it in a boring way or in an uncomfortable way and i don't know why i just cannot control my tongue.

No matter how hard it is, i still have to learn it. I'm sure that God will be by my side picking me up again and again if i fail to triumph over my problems. Please remember me in you prayer. Thank you so much.

I'm Happy To Know Her..

2009-01-28T04:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, i went out with Koon's GLO friends, Tian Me and Annie. We went to Jusco and both of them are very friendly. Although i live in Ipoh, but i do not know Jusco very well. They have been teasing me. I knew Annie during Chinese New Year's eve and she invited me to join their GLO's students gathering. At first i was reluctant to go but then through messaging with her, i found out that we can crap almost anything. Therefore, i went for their gathering.

I was asked to meet them at Mango. When i walked in to Mango, a girl saw me and she quickly ran to another girl and told her something. I knew it was Tian Me and she told Annie that i was there already. We did a quick intro and Tian Me asked me where can she shop for shoes. I am so lost cause I don't know where is it. So they tease me again. After that, we went to Imax and Tian me showed me some embarasing pictures of Koon during the camp. I laughed until i drop to the ground(joking).

Around 5.30p.m., Tian Me left and Annie and I decided to find a place and chit chat. We went to Secret Recipe for some cakes. Through this post i wish to say thank you to her for giving me a treat as she says she is older than me. Thank You. After that, Kevin Koon arrived. By right he should arrive at 4 something. So Annie and I gave him a big hit on his arm.

We decided to go for a movie. Since Annie do not know Mandarin and all the other movies are full except Underworld 3, so the three of us decided to watch that movie. It was my first time watching a horror movie in the cinema. Before the movie starts, koon went to the food court to grab something to eat. Annie dare him to finish his food in 1 minute. But, unfortunately he did not make it and that is because he purposely eat slowly. To punish him, we went into the cinema without giving him his ticket. The guard at the entrance ask for his ticket. I still remember he says this: ' i'm sorry, you cannot enter without a ticket'. Annie and i burst out in laughter. At last, we gave him his ticket and we went into the cinema.

Annie dared me to scream loudly in the cinema. I took up the challenge but in the end i'm too scared to scream. I did scream a little but she did not hear it. So it doesn't count. (sigh) Half of the movie i was closing my eyes as the scenes are super duper extra scary and bloody. It's about vampires, humans and lycans. It was soooooo scary. But both of them seems to enjoy the movie. I feel like vomiting when i saw the vampire vomit something red and slimy. Ewhh..

After the movie, we sat somewhere near the supermarket and we chit chat again. We told lame jokes and we had a lot of fun that day. It was a very memorable day cause I've never talked so much to some one i've just met for 2 days and i started to miss her already. I'm sure koon will be just alright in GLO. I wish to go to GLO next year too....

~end~

My Chinese New Year....

2009-01-26T19:46:00.000-08:00

This year's Chinese New Year was indeed a very fun one. All my relatives have come back from different places of Malaysia, mostly from KL. During the reunion dinner, my uncle brought back a big box of games, inside got Sudoku, the Strategy game and so on. All the games require brain power to play. Someone like me can easily win those games (JOKING). We had a lot of fun playing and laughing. My uncle is really a great guy. Although he is rich, he is very generous and he won't display his arrogant look. My auntie which is his wife always buy us clothes. I'm thankful to have them as my relatives. The reunion dinner was simply yummy. The food includes pig intestine soup, roasted pork, roasted chicken, roasted suckling pig and many many many many more.

I have a big family and that means I will get a lot of angpaus. This year there are two babies who have joined the family. Besides that i have a new cousin-in-law and two extra angpaus. It's a joy to see my family multiplying and and continue the line of the Ong Clan. I have already have 7 niece and nephews (so old lah me). Indeed, i have to thank God for taking good car for my family. This year another 3 cousins of mine will be getting married and i will get extra 6 angpaus nest year. Hurray!

Yesterday night, we walked to the restaurant just in front of my house and we have dinner there. The food is good and we don't have to squeeze with other people but we have to wait a long time cause the food needs a longer time to prepare. However, it's worth waiting.

Below are some pictures about my Chinese New Year , i should have taken more pictures.

Family dinner at a restaurant 1

Family dinner at a restaurant 2

Family Dinner at a restaurant 3

The two Chinese words represent my sirname " Ong"

My family but not all of them, i purposely took the photo of our new family member- Keean

My brother fixing my cousins hair

Me, my brother and our nephew- Stephen a.k.a Mr. Grumpy

A Great Challenge For Me

2009-01-23T02:32:00.000-08:00

Indeed, teaching Mezzo is a big challenge for me. I am not like Shireen or Vivien who can teach people easily. To them it's as easy as ABC( i think). To me, i'm afraid that what i teach is wrong and it will affect the whole choir. Today, i spent a long time teaching them their parts. It took me quite sometime to teach them one page. I don't know whether my teaching got problem or their parts is very tough. I was stressed out. It's very hard. I'm afraid when they look at me blankly. Some more i don't get any response from them. I think i'm the worst Mezzo leader in the whole history of choir. Haiz. . But , i won't give up. I'll practice harder form now onwards and i will also pray to God for help.

Wah... It's only January...

2009-01-16T02:42:00.000-08:00

It's only the first month of the year, but everyone is starting to get busy. I am thinking why can't the school let us get used to waking up early in the morning and then only give us work to do. Maybe because my school is a school which wants their students to be an all-rounder, that's why everyone MUST take part in 3 societies and get a post in 2 out of the 3 societies. Besides that, homework is coming from everywhere, from BM to Moral, teacher just keep on giving us homework. I can only sigh at my homework(because i'm lazy to do them). I miss the time when i can do whatever i want, whatever i like. I like going to church and hanging out with my friends as well as my family. Now i need to balance myself with school, tuition, family, relationship and friends.

It's kind of hard but slowly i'm getting better and better in balancing my homework and my life. It's like God has prepared everything for me. When i have a lot of homework, i will hang out with my friends to release stress. When i'm boring, i have homework to 'accompany' me. When I'm sad, my friends will lend their ears to me. When i'm sick, my family will take good care of me to make sure that i stay healthy and lively. When i'm facing my problems, God will be with me. It's like God is helping me to balance my life but putting in people or things into my life. Although sometimes thing does not come my way, i'm still thankful that God has planned everything for me.

~end~

In Battle with my itchy skin

2009-01-04T22:29:00.000-08:00

I do not know what i ate, from Saturday onwards my hands and legs started to grow something which i do not know the English word for that. Last night, i woke up at 2.00a.m. and i could not sleep due to the itch. So i went and put some 'minyak angin' which my mum says it will be useful. However, the oil did not help me. At last, my mum rought me downstairs and gave me a pil. After that, i slept soundly.

This morning when i woke up, i did not feel the itch. But when i came home from school. It starts to itch again. I cannot stand the itch but at the same time i cannot scratch it. Haiz.... it's gonna take days before i can triumph over this battle.

School is going to start......

2008-12-30T03:08:00.000-08:00

This holiday, i have to say is very short. I hope time will stop and i can continue to have fun. During this holiday, i did a lot of crazy stuffs, important stuffs, healthy stuffs, fun stuffs and last but not least some stuffs which will glorify God's name. Praise the Lord for that!

Why i like holidays so much?
1. Can hang out with my friends
2. Spend time with someone whom i love
3. Eat
4. Sleep
5. Join camp
6. Youth Rally
7. Sell Currypuffs
8. Caroling
9. Go for Prom
10. No tuition
11. Less stress
12. Less homework
13. Having fun like nobody's business
14. On9 whenever i want
15. Watch Movie
16. etc

Why i dislike holidays?
1. I will grow fat
2. I will be lazy
3. i have a lot of holiday homework
4. i do not have the mood to go back to school

Well, i have less reasons why i dislike holiday. That means i like holiday! (Crapping) I hope school won't be so stressful, nest year i will be facing my major exam. Stress will be packing their bags to my house and i have to be ready for my war. I need to sharpen my pencil which is my sword and to ask God for intelligence and guidance to face my enemy - SPM.

~the end~

Prom Night.. Anyone?

2008-12-07T00:36:00.000-08:00

Yo, people. Elim nd AOG are organizing a prom night. It's all about clean, healthy, christian fun. As the picture us not very clear. I'll write out the details.

Date: 24.12.08
Venue: Emmanuel's Gospel Hall (the one beside SJK(C) Chung San)
Time : 7.30p.m.-10.30p.m.
Fees : RM5 (include some light refreshments)
Dress code : Formal
*Bring a partner of the opposite gender/ bring a friend

It'll be a night to remember. Don't hesitate or you'll regret. If you guys want tickets, you can get from ah Kai, me, Eliza or ah Qi. Or if you know any organizers from AOG which are Sara, Chin Ai and Shin Yee, you all can also get the tickets from them.

BUG

2008-12-07T00:32:00.001-08:00

Some of you might be wondering what is BUG? It stands for Big Ultimate Games where v play frisbee, tcouckball, football and futsal. The picture show some of the youths posting proudly with their new bug T-shirt. Cool right? Anyone who is interested to join BUG can come to YMCA every sunday at 5p.m. It ends around 7 p.m.

A Small Request...

2008-12-02T00:47:00.000-08:00

People, please pray for me as i will be having my piano practical exam tomorrow. Thank You.

Crab In Bread......

2008-11-22T03:47:00.000-08:00

Crab lovers, I bring good news to you all. Today, i went to a restaurant and i saw the menu there says their so call famous dish is the crab cooked in bread. So, i gave it a try. I have heard of curry chicken in bread but i haven try crab in bread. I asked my dad to order that. When the crab arrive, the smell has already caught my heart. I cannot stop eating it until i finish the whole thing(of course, i shared it with my family). I sat there and eat while my dad wait like mad as I am a crab lover. So guys, if you all wanna try it, you all can visit this restaurant just in front of my house, Taman Pinji Seni or to be more specific it is near the Ipoh Airport.

Thank you BERTIN ONG!!!

2008-11-20T18:49:00.000-08:00

Thank you Bertin for this nice shirt. I have never thought that you'll bring something back for me in Singapore. Thanks a lot.

We brought the house down......

2008-11-20T17:28:00.001-08:00

I believe pictures speak louder than words. Therefore, i'm not gonna write much in this post. Look at these pictures and you all will know how we bring k box down.

A nice Song from HIgh School Musical 3

2008-11-20T00:35:00.000-08:00

Gabriella:]
{Talking}
Come here you'll love it
{singing}
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide
[Troy:]Won't you promise me
[Gabriella:]Now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget
[Troy:]We'll keep dancing
[Gabriella:]To keep dancing
[Both:]Wherever we go next
[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all
[Troy:]And you can't keep us apart
[Gabriella:]Even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart
[Troy:]Cause my heart is
[Gabriella:]Cause my heart is
[Both:] Wherever you are
[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
[Both:]
Oh, no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be
[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Gossipsss.....

2008-11-19T20:27:00.000-08:00

This morning i came across this tv show which challenge 4 best friends to go on a gossip diet where the four friends who like to gossip have to stop gossiping for one week(7 days). It's pretty hard for people not to gossip in a day, but with a little bit of determination one can make it through. At first, the four best friend started of well, but on the night of the 6th day, one of them started gossiping and they have to start all over again. They are given special wrist bands to remind them not to gossip. They have to record themselves everyday just like we write our diaries.

After 7 days, they learn a lot of stuffs. They learn how to control their tongue as they know every gossips they say might hurt other people's feelings. Now, whenever they say something, they'll make sure that it is healthy, kind and it won't hurt other people's feelings. One way they suggest to the public is to put yourself in other people's shoes as when you do this, you tend not to talk bad about that person. Before you gossip about something, you have to make sure that it is a fact. If not, don;t gossip about it.

There's some exception also, if the thing you are talking about that person is something good and encouraging, by all means you can gossip about that. But be careful, something something good will turn to something bad very fast. If you all wanna learn more about taming the tongue, try reading the book of James.

So friends, think before you speak...

~end~

Internasional Chess... Checkers... Chinese Chess

2008-11-11T23:57:00.000-08:00

Lately, me and my schoolmates like to play board games especially this three kind of chess. We are so into it. We play during recess and when our teacher is not in class. I managed to K.O. my opponent a few times but today, unfortunately i was beaten by Jan twice. Once in chinese chess and the other one in International chess. I need to improve on my skills in order to beat her back. She is getting better already as yesterday she did not managed to K.O. me. Besides me and Janice, Jo Yee, Kah Yan and Ton are getting more and more interested in playing chess. This is what the students of 4S8 do after our exams.

Just Another Day In School

2008-11-05T00:40:00.000-08:00

After exam and the concert, school seems to be very super duper boring. All my friends did not go to school and i'm like alone all the time. Chow it's very busy as usual, Sabrina got her own work to do, Janice, Denise and Jo Yee did not go to school.Today i need to go to school cause i need to settle the certificates thingy. The first four periods, me and some of my classmates watched 'The Day After Tomorrow ' in our Bio lab. It's kind of scary to me as it predict what will happen to our Mother Earth if mankind continue to destroy it. We might experience the 2nd Ice Age soon. It is very scary. Therefore, we should act quickly before we have no place left to live.

After recess, i went back to class, took out my Sudoku book and started doing it. But i felt even more boring than watching the movie. So, i decided to take a nap. But it does not help me to pass my time. So, i took out some pencils and start drawing. I started drawing about my classroom and it turn out to be quite good. Maybe i have Picasso's gene in me-joking.

At 12 o'clock, Anjoe(one of my friend from Ranger) and I went down to the field to see how our Juniors doing with their marching skill as they are having a marching competition today. Our Form 3 juniors ask us to be the judge for the competition. So, Anjoe and I took up the job but we only managed to see 2 team perform. We found out that many of their steps are wrong and their format is a bit terpesong.Tomorrow, we will go to the field again. Nevermind, they still have plenty of time to learn. I'm sure they'll get better as they gain more experience. Ganbateh girl guides.

~end~

My Masterpiece

Untitled

張棟樑 - 給朋友的話【 完整版 】 MV

Wow!!

MikesChair - Someone Worth Dying For (Official Music Video)

You are Beautiful!! :D

Voice of Truth lyrics - CASTING CROWNS

Let it go - Tenth Avenue North

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 4 of 4

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 3 of 4

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 2 of 4

Nick Vujicic's Inspirational Talk-Life Without Limbs 1 of 4

DON'T WORRY! EVERYTHING IS SETTLED!!

Proverbs 3

Jesus Vs Satan

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

BY YOUR SIDE

A Whole New Episode

A memorable birthday!!!

The same old problem visits me again... :(

There will be light even when I am in my darkest moments.

No Regrets..

I have been blessed...

SPM result is finally out...

7 Days in this new environment...

The best CNY ever!!!

Pictures speaks more than words..

I know what Family means...

Sometimes I Just WANNA BE BAD!!!!

23 days and counting...

I am going to be a COUCH POTATO!!!

My Love Story...

COME COME COME!!

To the ONE most high....

Getting ready to face a NEW WORLD!!

Exam's Near.. :(

The song for all Form Fives!!!

WIld Chipmz Rockxx!!!!

Be content..

SPM is riding on a bullet train to reach me!!!

The two little twin cousins of mine..

Careless Mistakes keep on bugging me.. arrgghh

Trying to be someone i am not..

It's Incredible!!!

It's a lot of pressure..

Trembling now...

Which one is better?? Before of after??

Afraid..

Joke of the day.. From my bio teacher...

Thank you!!!

Why????

A tough week for me!!

Wedding Day's Photo!!

Canteen Day's Photo!!!

My New Song : Daddy Loves You

Thank you!!!

I love today!!!

Cool TIme..

Oh man.. It's so hard to believe..

I love my gang...

The Biggest Loser!! Great Show!!

I have been doing much thinking lately....

Happy Anniversary!!

Pictures..

Clueless..

I love Power Lab!!!

Pasar Malam's Night Out!!!

WE did it!!! *scream*

We had a great time today!!

Yesterday i went to a Japanese Restaurant!!!

Not in the mood today... but then...

TE AMO Pn. Cheah!!!

AMIGAS , AMIGOS, POR SIEMPRE!!!!

Thank You Lord...

I copied this from a friend's blog... It is about EY...

I cannot believe that!!!

Something to share...

SMK MC Gathering.........

I am who I am

Have Faith in God

張棟樑 - 給朋友的話【完整版】 MV

WE did it!!! scream