Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Thank you!!!

A big thank you to everyone that remember me in their prayers. Indeed, prayer really works! I am feeling much better now and I won't be feeling so relieved now without you guys. Thank you.. *tears*

The past few weeks I have been facing a lot of difficulties in my life that almost knock me out cause all the things happen simultaneously , one by one, most of it hurts me. Thank God, He showed me how to handle my feelings and I started to depend him more and more. He showed me that I am not alone and that He will be with me. I have learnt a lot of valuable lessons through this period of time. My faith in Him grew stronger and I hope it will continue to grow.

I am someone who struggles in making big decisions like what i want to do after my studies. I am afraid to make decisions because I am afraid that I won't be able to turn back if the decision i made was wrong. Sometimes I can't even choose which event i want to go. During this period of time, I think it's God's plan that I have to choose between two things. I was very confused and lost at first. And then Wan Li told me to leave it all to God and asked Him to show me the right path to walk. I started praying and every time i pray, miraculously, there is something that calm me down and after i prayed i felt better. I can think properly. After some time of praying, God showed me what He wants me to do and I did it. So far so good, I am happy with the decision I made. Praise the Lord!

Later in life, I am sure that i will be standing on a crossroad again and i need to choose AGAIN. but this time round, i think I can handle it with maturity and I will seek God first before i make any major decision.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Why????

Why did she do that to me!!!!
Why did these happen???
At the wrong time...
I lost my mood to study...
And trial is very close...
Why did he did that too??
How come he don't know how to say no!!
Or maybe he is the one that started it!!!
Arrggggghhhh..
My heart is filled with frustration and sadness...
This is beyond what i can bear!!!
My first time in my entire life that i felt that my heart was zapped by lightning and it turned into ashes...
Never in my life i felt that I can trust no one on earth...
Never in my life i wish I can scream my lungs out..
Never in my life I wish i don't know them......
But, now i experienced all of them....


Friends ... Please pray for me.. I need it very much..