Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Check This Out...

The Mechanical Contrivium: Bernice

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Bernice!

  1. Medieval knights put the skin of Bernice on their sword handles to improve the grip!
  2. Baby swans are called Bernice!
  3. Worldwide, Bernice is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects.
  4. Grapes explode if you put them inside Bernice!
  5. A Berniceometer is used to measure Bernice.
  6. While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their Bernice!
  7. Bernice cannot jump.
  8. There is no lead in a lead pencil - it is simply a stick of graphite mixed with Bernice and water!
  9. All swans in England belong to Bernice.
  10. Bernice never said 'Play it again, Sam'.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

What I've been through this week

This year's Sukan Tara i scored a total of 6 marks for four events... 2 marks for high jump, 2 marks for long jump, 1mark for 100m and 1 mark for lontar peluru. This is the happiest year for me as i get to score in every event. I have never scored 2 marks in long jump. But i did it....Hurray!!!

Well, another happy thing for me that happened is today's Valentine's Day celebration with the EYs(elim youths).. I had a lot of fum eating and mixing around. I did not bathe from morning until 9 something..Phew.. the smell... this is the time where i can release my stress and do crazy stuffs.

Now the sad and stressful stuffs. This week, i've been facing a lot of patient problem with my blue hose marching team members. They are always using my weakness, they know i won;t scold them so they always ponteng and give me lame excuses like tution. I told them from the first day that they have to sacrifice their tuition time for the last week of practice. Now, they tell me they cannot come next week. I was burning hot when they keep on arguing with me with a very chuen tone. I think that's because i treat them too friendly since day 1. My friends ask me to be more strict but i just can't and i don't know why. It's simply not my nature. I will only show my true colours to my brothers. Below are some conversations with girl A

A: I cannot come on Monday.
Ber: Y??
A: I got tuition.
Ber: i thought is say no more tuition for next week. You have to sacrifice something if u won't to work this out.
A: I don't want to miss any tution.
Ber: You have to come. Besides you, there are many people sacrificing their time .
A: Ok. If you want me to come on Monday , then wednesday i won't come.
Ber: (burning) Y?
A: Tuition
Ber: you can go home earlier.
A: Friday i also cannot come cause i got librarian duty.
Ber: That one can be replaced.
A: Cannot arr, i'm a new librarian cannot miss duty.
Ber: Can geh. trust me.
A: I don't know ar.. if i can replace then i come. If i cannot replace then i don't come.
(then, i was burning, but i didn't say anything. I dare not scold her. I wonder why.)

I also have some issues with our ranger teacher. She wants us to do our duty but she tell us on that day so we did not manage to get people to come for duty. Then she blamed chow. I was there then i kind of argue a little with her. Then she says why we did not wear uniform as an excuse to shoot us back. she expect us to go class by class and check see whether who didn't wear. Haiz. Those important stuffs like learning survival skills she don't let us to do but those minor minor mistakes she will pin point it out. Help!! Chow and I got so stressed up because of her.

This week is filled with happiness and sadness. I think that's why people say life is like a roller coaster...

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Ber is stressed out...

They say student's life is very easy... but i do not agree with that...

Lately, i've been feeling stressed out with what I am doing right now. The teachers put high hopes on this year's blue house marching team. I guess that's because this is her last year being the head teacher of blue house. She is a perfectionist. It makes life harder for me. Luckily, my assistant is very helpful. Although I am a leader, but i cannot make my own decision. I am afraid that my decision is wrong and it will lead the whole marching team to their doom. It's very hard for me to become a leader as i'm not that kind of material. I'm not like chow, I cannot lead and i have to ask my junior whether am i right or wrong. I feel a bit useless in being a leader...

P/S: Keep me in prayer. Thank You.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Patience is bitter, but the fruit is sweet...

As u all know, i'm not a very patient person. Especially to those i love. I've been experiencing a lot of these situation for the past 4 weeks when things started to change. I some how just cannot accept the reasons he/she gave me. My friends told me i'm controlling too much but i cannot help it. Until now i'm still struggling with this issue.

Today, i walk past my school's corridors and i saw this phrase. This phrase shows me the need to be patient and what will i get from it. I've been praying for quite some time about this issue but God did not make my anger or fear go away. Instead, i think God created a lot more situations like his for me to handle but i don't seem to handle it well. My friends told me that i'm controlling too much, therefore, i've been using all kinds of way to make myself busy doing things or sleeping.

Yesterday, i still think i can get over this issue after I've listened to Janice's advise. It make me forget about my anger for a while. But after some time, the same thing came back to me again, it's like a super glu glued to me. Today, everything seems fine but just now things turned bad again. I don't know how many patience i have left before i blow up. I keep on reminding myself to let go. Sometimes it worked, but most of the time i failed to control it and i will say something that i did not attempt to say. I'm sorry. When someone is angry they tend to say things which they don't really mean.

I've collected alot of advises from my friends how to be patient but the practical part is super duper hard for me especially to those i love. I think i just have to keep on praying and learn at the same time. Patience is a very difficult lesson(trust me, i know). Everytime we have any conversations, we will either end it in a boring way or in an uncomfortable way and i don't know why i just cannot control my tongue.

No matter how hard it is, i still have to learn it. I'm sure that God will be by my side picking me up again and again if i fail to triumph over my problems. Please remember me in you prayer. Thank you so much.