My Love Story...

A day before camp, I experienced something extraordinary.. I felt that I am loved :)
I had a car accident just in front of the church compound.. At that moment, I was terrified. My mind went blank and I can't think properly. Luckily, there are some church members came out to have a look after hearing the loud clash.. Then, more friends and their families came out and helped me. It's by God's grace that He 'assigned' people to help me when I was helpless.. Things get sorted out pretty quickly.. :D

When I came back from China, this thought struck me. Why on earth will this accidents happen just before i turn into church compound? Then i began to think.. I was shocked by the answer i get. Before that, i was so caught up with the camp preparations and sometimes i felt frustrated working with people and being busy all the time. Sorry if this sounds emotional, I feel out of place sometimes. I felt that God is trying to show me that there are still people who cares about me, there are people that are willing to stand by me and help me along the way. Thank you Daddy!!! This incident will be a reminder for me in future reminding me that God loves me and so do the people around me.. :D

Now, I am sure i will drive extra carefully when i am on the road. :D

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From PIC,

Kevin Koon and Bernice Ong

To the ONE most high....

This is my 100th post and decided to write this post for God. I want to share it with those who read this blog about how great this God, this father, this friend of mine is. He is truly the Alpha and Omega, the Saviour, the Healer, the Sovereign King and the most important things is the one who loves me..

Anytime when I am in trouble, He is there to help me. He is just one prayer away from me. It is more efficient than the 911 hotline. I've tried praying to Him once when I am lost in the middle of nowhere. To my surprise, God answered my prayer in just less than 24 hours. I have never seen such immediate change of a person in my life!! Only He alone possess the power to do that.. He is the one the wipe my tears away when I am hurt. There will always be people around me, be it friends or relatives to comfort me. With just a simple prayer, nightmares are turned into the sweetest dreams one can ever imagine, turns bitter medicine to sweet and tasty honeys..

This is how GREAT my God is!!! I just want show my appreciation to Him by writing this post. Thank you God for everything that you have done out of Your love for me!!

I love you my Heavenly Father!!

Getting ready to face a NEW WORLD!!

Well, as you all know, i am going off soon to further my studies in Australia. I am excited to go there to experience a whole new world. Don't get me wrong, I do feel heavy-hearted to leave behind my love ones. I believe God gave me this opportunity to try on something new and learn along the way. I am very grateful that, my parents are very supportive, in fact, they are the ones that started this idea of going overseas.

At first, i was reluctant to go to Australia. I was afraid. I am actually a very timid person (those who know me very well will understand why i said this :D) . I really want to thank a person that changed my perspective towards studying far away from home.. She was a very tough girl that is brave enough to travel away from home while she was at a very young age. What struck the most is the way she thinks, it is totally different from the way Asians think. I guess maybe she was brought up in a Western culture. I always have this wrong perspective saying that what the westerners do are bad , there are a lot of social problems and stuffs like that. All these years, I have failed to see the good side of the culture.

After knowing her, my life has changed. I no longer caged myself in my little small world. Although, it is not obvious but somehow, i felt something different about myself. There are some misunderstandings between us, but from that, i learnt a lot of valuable lessons. Thank you.. Gracias Amiga!!

I am also very fortunate that this time round I have friends that will accompany me to walk this path of my journey. I am lucky to have Shireen and Dwayne to be in Australia with me. Like Dwayne said, together, we will be the BIG THREE (Legolas (me), Aragorn (Shireen) and Gimli(Dwayne). We will conquer Australia!! Haha.. This is truly God's blessings. Thank you Lord!!

I will miss everyone in Malaysia. I will try to call back or send you all emails when I am there. If i can get cheap air tickets, I will fly back to Malaysia!! YOU HAVE MY WORD!! :D Hopefully i can change for the better in Aus!!

Exam's Near.. :(

SPM is just around the corner but I don't think I am nervous about it yet. All eyes are on my results and sometimes it indirectly pressures me. Although people says : sometimes stress is good.. But to me.. it depends. I hope that I can manage to make my parents proud of my results , probably because I don't want them to scold me.. :D

Well, to all Form 5s who are taking SPM ,

GOOD LUCK!! ALL THE BEST IN SPM!!
LET OUR PENS AND PENCILS BE OUR SWORDS AND SHIELDS
GOD WILL BE OUR COMMANDER!!
WE CAN WIN THIS WAR FOR GOD!!
:D GANBATEH EVERYONE!!!
SEE YOU ALL AT THE FRONTLINE OF THE BATTLEFIELD!!!

The song for all Form Fives!!!

This song is entitled Step Forth by Wild Chimpz...

WIld Chipmz Rockxx!!!!

I LOVE WILD CHIMPZZ!!!!!

We completed our performance yesterday and it was a great one!!! I think we did bring the house down!! Haha.. I am glad that God is with us throughout the performance.. Prayer works!! Bonds have been built up because of this performance and I learnt a lot from being a member of a band...
Believe me, what i learnt is nor from our textbooks.. I would like to thank all of my friends who helped us getting the instruments set up, setting up the PA systems and Uncles, Aunties and teachers that helped us!!! Mucho Gracias!! We appreciate your help very much... I would like to thank all our supporters that sreamed and cheered for us.. THANK YOU!!!!!

This will be our last performance in high school.. T.T but it leaves behind memories that will stay in my mind forever.. :D

Be content..

THINGS THAT I HAVE :
1. God
2. Food to eat/drink
3. Shelter
4. Clothes to wear
5. A fully equipped body to do work
6. Family to love
7. Friends to care for
8. Money to spend
9. Love to share
10. Soul mate
11. the ability to learn
12. the ability to play musical instruments
13. The ability to love others
14. Enemies to love
15. Gospel to share
16. Every single breath that God gives me
17. Every single need God provided me
18. Toys
etc....

I own a lot of things. Thank you God.. I have to learn to be content and try not to covet. :) Contentment brings joy and happiness.. At the same time, we should always look forward and try to improve ourselves. Instead of wanting more from others, why not we try to give out some? No harm done right? Therefore, we should learn not to develop the feeling of wanting more from others and starts giving others some..

:) this is what i learnt from last week Sunday School's lesson that i wish to share it with you all...

SPM is riding on a bullet train to reach me!!!

There are still 36 days before SPM (if Janice counted correctly). 36 days is not long and neither it is short. Till now I've been indulging myself with card games (monopoly) , board games (chess), the internet and also chit-chatting with my friends. I have lost the urgency to revise every chapter or to do as many exercises as I can. All i want is to PLAY!! I know this is kind of bad and mom will be chasing after me after she saw this post.

I do not know why. Every time after my trial exams (UPSR, PMR and SPM). I lost the mood to study. For me to pick up the book again and start reading is quite hard. This time round, I have to whip myself like how the trainers whip their horses so that I can get back on track with my studies. Only when exam is approaching, the rate of me facing temptations increases (weird but it is supported by solid experiments :D) .. At the eve or exam, TV programs seemed more interesting and outdoor activities seemed excited. What a joke this is !!! It is also during this time that i became more prayerful and having a consistent quiet time. :( I am sorry Lord..

Sigh.. Therefore, from now onwards I have to worked hard!! So that I can get flying colours in my exam and make God, not to forget my family and friends, to be proud of me! Before I can achieve something, I need to pay it with my hard work... Success comes at a price!!! ( a high price- fuh.. expensive) .

~the end~

The two little twin cousins of mine..

JJ

JC

Together they are JC and JJ

They know how to spread out their arms to balance themselves and guess what, they are only two years old. They love driving their parents up the wall, making ugly faces and trying out new things such as licking guitar strings, wearing adult shoes and trying to slide down a slide with their body facing the sky. Haha.. They are sooo cute and I love them!!

Careless Mistakes keep on bugging me.. arrgghh

Why am I so careless?? How come I can't never complete a paper without any careless mistakes and flawless. Sigh.. I was wondering whether it is in one of my gene. Haha. If it was not because of the mistakes I have made I would have scored quite well for my Modern Mathematics paper. I feel like crawling underneath a rock and die!! Haha. Hope I will do better in my Additional Mathematics paper. If not, I will be skinned alive!!

Now, I'm starting to feel the pressure originated from my mother. I never liked it when she compared me to my friends especially when they score better than me. But i had no choice, I have to tell her how well they did and if they did better than me, she starts to nag me : " Girl, you always watch TV, that's why you cannot do well." or "Girl, what were you thinking when you are sitting for the papers?" and on and on and on.. She never see how well I did in my other papers. I've actually improved in a lot of subjects for this trial exam. She never give me a pat on the shoulder and tell me that : " Good job girl, you've improved! ".. It creates a lot of invisible burdens in my life. Well, I do not blame her for that cause her parents, my grandparents never did that either. Next time when I have my own offspring, I know what am I supposed to do.

I have to work harder now so that i won't disappoint them. Pressure is good if it is treated in a right way. Right?? Fuh.. Have to work like a donkey from now on!! Haha.. Knowing that I have my friends with me (thanks to Kian Aun) , i guess i will learn to handle this is in a PRECIOUS way.. May the Lord be with me as i move into another chapter of my life.. :)

Trying to be someone i am not..

Sometimes i wish i can have the berry that can show one's true identity ( in case you are wondering, it's from Barbie Mermaida ) . I wish to know what's God's plan for me and who I really am. Since i knew this girl, I've been trying my best to be like her or to beat her. In fact, I'm am the one whose butt was kicked! It sounds crazy but i will always check her Facebook to know what is happening around her. Sometimes, I hope to have what she has (things that money can't buy).
I told my friends that she is talented, pretty, humerous, generous, kind and someone that is very close to God. They threw me back with a question : How well do you know her?? I startled. Actually, i do not know her as deep as i know Janice, Sabrina and Shireen. On second thought, there's another side of her that i do not know. They told me that nobody is perfect and i kind of agree with that but i never knew what weaknesses she has. I am sick of trying to imitate her. I have told myself a billion times not to compare, not to thinks about her, be who I am and be proud of it! I just simply can't do it! With frustration and sadness in me, i do not know how to tackle this problem. I wish I know why I try to be like her. Is it because she possess the strengths that I do not have and God wants me to learn something from her or something else. I am confused and lost.

My friends told me that I am fearfully and wonderful made by God. No one is 100% alike. I kind of agree . They told me not to worry and I am not as bad as i think. They also tell me to be the Bernice that I was born to be. However, it's easier said than done. I guess i have to learn it the HARD way. God, please help me to overcome this , I cannot stop thinking about how to beat her. Why would i want to beat her? That's the question I always ask myself and sadly, I can't find an answer to that. :(

None the less, i will continue to pray for God to show me a way to solve this problem of mine. Maybe it's a test or a trial that God give me so that i will learn perseverance and also to know that He made me for a reason. Why didn't He make me like her? I think because I am different from her and God wants me to be different. Well, I am not sure about that. :( Lord, please show me an answer...

~end~

It's Incredible!!!

I've watch a lot of Barbie's movies this two days.. It's so unbelievable. I've flew back to the time when i was still a kid.

I've watched :
- Barbie Swan Lake
- Barbie As Thumberlina
- Barbie As Rapunzel
- Barbie The Island Princess
- Barbie As The Princess and the Pauper
- Barbie In a Christmas Carol
- Barbie and the Diamond Castle
- Barbie As the 12 Dancing Princess
- Barbie Mermaida
- Barbie Diaries
- Barbie Fairytopia: Magic Of The Rainbow
- Barbie In the Nutcracker
- Barbie And the Magic of Pegasus
- Barbie Fairytopia
(I wonder did i miss out any of them?? Hmm)

There's a lot of moral values behind these movies. It's good to have young kids watch it so that they can learn something from it especially girls. :D

I love fairy tales but it is not possible in real life. Sigh.

It's a lot of pressure..

Sometimes i felt like giving up cause a lot of pressures are coming in. That is also one part of me telling myself not to give up, encouraging me that i can do it. It's tough and this is the world I am living in, the background i came from. I feel very frustrated at times. Now, i'm leaving everything to God. Teach me Lord what should i do. Let me do it for your glory.

Trembling now...

This is not the first time i'm playing guitar for night worship.. But now i am shaking and i do not know why. :( Sigh. Guess i still need a lot of practice and hard work . :) HOpe i won't mess up the worship tonight. If I do, I'm sorry Fei Wong.. :)

Which one is better?? Before of after??

Before

After

Before

After

Afraid..

I've been very afraid after that incident. Always worrying that an explosion will happen anytime. Being a big sister, a good girlfriend, a friend , a student and a good daughter is not an easy task. A lot of conflicts are going on in my life makes me just wanna hide myself in one corner and avoid seeing people sometimes. This feeling keeps on growing in me. Every time i pray, this feeling will be gone but only for a while. After that it came back again. It's kind of frustrating for me. Life is full with a lot of conflicts, the key is how we handle it and i suck in handling conflicts. Every thing i do, i have to think about everyone else first whether will i hurt their feelings or will i make them feel uncomfortable. I have to be careful every time. this is why i cannot get rid of my fear. Furthermore, i am a timid person and this make things worse. I do not know what to do now. God, please tell me what to do. T.T

Joke of the day.. From my bio teacher...

This is a conversation between a British lady and an Arabian man.

The lady : Hello, may i know who is speaking?
The man : I am Ahmad al- Ranjit.
The lady : Sex?
The man : Three to five times a week.
The lady : No, no, no.. I mean male or female.
The man : Male, female and sometimes camel.
The lady : Holy cow!
The man : Yeah, cows, donkeys and horses.
The lady : Isn't that too hostile?
The man : Cow style, horse style, any style la.
The lady : Oh dear...
The man : Dear cannot cause they run too fast.

This is the joke i heard from our bio teacher. Hahaha...

Thank you!!!

A big thank you to everyone that remember me in their prayers. Indeed, prayer really works! I am feeling much better now and I won't be feeling so relieved now without you guys. Thank you.. *tears*

The past few weeks I have been facing a lot of difficulties in my life that almost knock me out cause all the things happen simultaneously , one by one, most of it hurts me. Thank God, He showed me how to handle my feelings and I started to depend him more and more. He showed me that I am not alone and that He will be with me. I have learnt a lot of valuable lessons through this period of time. My faith in Him grew stronger and I hope it will continue to grow.

I am someone who struggles in making big decisions like what i want to do after my studies. I am afraid to make decisions because I am afraid that I won't be able to turn back if the decision i made was wrong. Sometimes I can't even choose which event i want to go. During this period of time, I think it's God's plan that I have to choose between two things. I was very confused and lost at first. And then Wan Li told me to leave it all to God and asked Him to show me the right path to walk. I started praying and every time i pray, miraculously, there is something that calm me down and after i prayed i felt better. I can think properly. After some time of praying, God showed me what He wants me to do and I did it. So far so good, I am happy with the decision I made. Praise the Lord!

Later in life, I am sure that i will be standing on a crossroad again and i need to choose AGAIN. but this time round, i think I can handle it with maturity and I will seek God first before i make any major decision.

Why????

Why did she do that to me!!!!
Why did these happen???
At the wrong time...
I lost my mood to study...
And trial is very close...
Why did he did that too??
How come he don't know how to say no!!
Or maybe he is the one that started it!!!
Arrggggghhhh..
My heart is filled with frustration and sadness...
This is beyond what i can bear!!!
My first time in my entire life that i felt that my heart was zapped by lightning and it turned into ashes...
Never in my life i felt that I can trust no one on earth...
Never in my life i wish I can scream my lungs out..
Never in my life I wish i don't know them......
But, now i experienced all of them....


Friends ... Please pray for me.. I need it very much..

A tough week for me!!

This week is indeed the toughest week of the year for me. I faced relationships problems, family problems and study problems. It's really tough for me. Mom keep asking me questions that i do not want to or don't know how to answer. It made me kind of frustrated and lost. i know my trial is coming but i just cannot concentrate on my studies.I guess this is the time God want to mould me into the shape He planned for me. Therefore, i have to be strong to face any rainstorms in my life, be prepared to face any unwanted circumstances. God, please help me to go through it and I know you will not give me anything beyond what i can bear.

Yesterday, my teacher said something that struck me. She said : When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. This is very true in our life and i began to understand this phrase more . Life is not always a bed of roses, it has its ups and downs, just like a roller coaster.

Now prayer is very important to me. It's prayer that keeps me going , it's prayer that cheer me up in my times of my worries.

So, to all who read this post, i hope you guys can remember me in your prayer. Thank you.

Wedding Day's Photo!!

Canteen Day's Photo!!!